Slow down everyone, you're moving too fast
Umm...I should be downloading files and shit but I'm not. Why? Because I don't understand computers and I can't find all the files I need to and the directions my teacher gave me are in the wrong order. I dont' know what I did wrong but apparently its something. I'm going to fail this paper I can tell...I have no motivation this semester.
So Tigerband is over...almost. Our last home game was this weekend so all we had left was tigerama dress rehearsal, Tigerama, and the Arkansas trip and the bowl game. So yeah, tigerband really isn't over yet, just the Tiger Stadium part. It's hard for me to get attached because I still have Bengal Brass, its not like I'm never going to see these people again. I don't think the whole not in Tigerband anymore thing will really sink in until next football season when I'm in the student section and watching everyone else go down for pregame and such. Well I guess the whole I'll never be on the field in tigerstadium again (without being arrested) thing is pretty sad, but like I said, nothing has sunk in yet. The Arkansas trip will be fun.
This semester has been rather ridiculous. I'm taking primarily easy classes, several 1000 levels, yet I'm somehow allowing myself to suck at it. I think I'm just tired of being here. I've never been one to be able to stay in the same place for prolonged periods of time. 4 years is pretty much my limit to be doing the same thing over and over again. Plus I'm realizing how inadequate I've been with involvement and trying to further myself and ways that actually fit my major and what I want to do. Like making friends with professors and finding out what historians actually do. Sure I did 4 years of tigerband and 3 years of bengal brass....but how does that help me get into grad school. How is that going to get me a decent recommendation from someone relevent to the field. It's not and in that sense I realize that I already failed. And to top it off, I've been procrastinating this paper to the point that I feel like it is never going to get down. So its going to suck and its the professor that actually sorta knows me the best. But actually I already blew that one because I don't participate in class and that's a huge deal with him. Now computers are even more against me. Really I just want to get home for Christmas and play with my puppy and pretty much forget this semester ever happened with the exception of the drop in my GPA, that was pretty much the only thing I had going for me and now that's about to plummet....and for those of you who dont believe me I'm looking at a C in Geol 1003. I guess the moral is, I'm done with school.
I lack motivation....
So Tigerband is over...almost. Our last home game was this weekend so all we had left was tigerama dress rehearsal, Tigerama, and the Arkansas trip and the bowl game. So yeah, tigerband really isn't over yet, just the Tiger Stadium part. It's hard for me to get attached because I still have Bengal Brass, its not like I'm never going to see these people again. I don't think the whole not in Tigerband anymore thing will really sink in until next football season when I'm in the student section and watching everyone else go down for pregame and such. Well I guess the whole I'll never be on the field in tigerstadium again (without being arrested) thing is pretty sad, but like I said, nothing has sunk in yet. The Arkansas trip will be fun.
This semester has been rather ridiculous. I'm taking primarily easy classes, several 1000 levels, yet I'm somehow allowing myself to suck at it. I think I'm just tired of being here. I've never been one to be able to stay in the same place for prolonged periods of time. 4 years is pretty much my limit to be doing the same thing over and over again. Plus I'm realizing how inadequate I've been with involvement and trying to further myself and ways that actually fit my major and what I want to do. Like making friends with professors and finding out what historians actually do. Sure I did 4 years of tigerband and 3 years of bengal brass....but how does that help me get into grad school. How is that going to get me a decent recommendation from someone relevent to the field. It's not and in that sense I realize that I already failed. And to top it off, I've been procrastinating this paper to the point that I feel like it is never going to get down. So its going to suck and its the professor that actually sorta knows me the best. But actually I already blew that one because I don't participate in class and that's a huge deal with him. Now computers are even more against me. Really I just want to get home for Christmas and play with my puppy and pretty much forget this semester ever happened with the exception of the drop in my GPA, that was pretty much the only thing I had going for me and now that's about to plummet....and for those of you who dont believe me I'm looking at a C in Geol 1003. I guess the moral is, I'm done with school.
I lack motivation....