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[scured_of_hites]

ok...so i miss John, lets juss say "shitloads"!! life without him is like life without air. and no im not in love. so anyone who wants to ask me, thats the answer. im still young...i dont even know what love is yet!! or so i think. thought i was in love once, didnt know any better. got my heart smashed to pieces, and i dont think i can go thru that again. i think i have the worst luck with guys named "John"...Jon Turkowski. Jon Cordero. my bros friend Jonathan. and now this John. but its ok, cuz i got to talk to him last night. and Andrew Chapman. those 2 are like the "loves of my life" right now. Andrew always has been and most likely always will be. iono if John is anything serious or if its juss a crush thats gonna be over in a few weeks. whatever...im so confuseded..
so im definitely forbidden to see or talk to John...how unfair is that?! well, lifes a bitch, and then ya die!! i hate it that thats how things hafta be.
so ya--im goin to states in track. for the 4x800 relay. im pretty pleased with myself...lol. but its this Saturday up at UF. so its not like i get out from school early...altho that would be nice!! lol.
not much else has happened with me and Drew...it would be nice tho--i dont think hes tpp happy with me tho..with the whole John thing...whatever tho...youc ant always get what you want...
alright, imout for now--at Sam's...write more when i get home i guess. lol. later.
oh ya--the mood, its not an "emotional"thing--its really "touched". lmao.