A new do ( post number 136 )
it's 1:00 monday morning august 17th
this saturday, fasting month begins. Horraaay ! means time is going faster & faster. I remembered saying this to ariff last year, a week before fasting month "omg, dah puasa ? cepat gila. I cam rasa semalam je first day of hicg school" " i know and we're gonna be form two next year and we'll probably say the same shit" and here i am repeating the same shit. Time is a fuking illusion.
And i'll probably say the same shit when i'm finishing form 5. Good Golly ! and where will everybody be by then ? i remember saying this to Hafidz "i want...i want everyone. Everyone here right now. Friends. Forever. Till we all have kids and stuffs" " memang ah semua orang nak tu tapi nanti bila dah jumpa college friends sume. I bet ah we won't be friends sampai ada anak sume" i hate the future because mine is so cloudy that i'm afraid to jump.
But thing is, i'll never know it until i try it right ?
i hate that my house is a fucking mess and everything is broken.
I hate that i'll be leaving my friends. Leaving the usuals.
i hate tha fact that whatever i do won't change my parents decision to move.
because we need it. moving i mean.
everywhere in the house is a mess and coming. expeacially my room.
it's hard to even walk in it.
there's no place where i can sit in peace and study. i don't have a fucking table.
i have to share my room with my sisters. Not that i hate them or anything. I love them. We're great. Just that i want to create my room the way i want it and i want to do everything my way. Ugh, i just can't till im old anough to get my own apartment, car & money
im listening to meet uncle hussein which brings back memories. i hate it. Makes me feel so nostalgic and sad.
im looking through the internet for room ideas. What do you think i should have ? maybe i should put it all in and show it to yah ? next post kay ?
it's 2:01 better go
Scumbag212