why isn't anything working out ? ( post number 125 )
i used to write really bitter things in here huh ? like last year. I was fuckingly insane. When you watch movies or the telly and when you see a broken family fighting and one of the child would be in the little corner trying to cover her ears or looking like she's screaming in her mind. Im like that in this very moment. In fact, im biting my tongue so hard. Please SHUT UP !!! for god's sakes. all your talk makes me eat up myself. Eventhough it's not about me.
I don't know how your mind works mother. It's like your thinking only using one corner. And you can never see the big picture or you don't understand at all. Okay, maybe my grammar and stuff is shit right now. The hell i care. Im listening to their stupid bitter talks ! and im bitter as hell people is just that i might never just show it. Well im not saying i have a broken family. Just that my mom is stupid. FULLSTOP.
I have insomnia so i get really tired all the time but i can never shut down. I slept at school a bit cos there was nothing in hell to do. But it wasn't working really. I just closed my eyelids but nothing. It's like leaving your computer on standby it still runs.
i hate the fact that this year, Maths just got a bit tougher and im lazing out. Im always tired and feeling lazy. I get headaches & heartaches often. I just want things to go back the way it used to. Hmm, i don't know.
With all the stress about moving. i can't imagine myself in another house, another school. I can never rest in peace. It's hard enough to have great friends here. It took me a long time to get used to my friends now. Though, i never tell them any of my problem. They're just frineds that makes me happy at school. Nonetheless, i have to admit i love having their existance.
i love him in charlie bartlett and still love him in Terminator. I love you. Bahahahaha ! macam tengah tulis tentang boyfriend.
Myra gave me gossip girl tadi and i watched it with a smile up my butt. I love chuck bass that it hurts so much. I cannot wait for August 31st
i cannot wait for New Zealand :D
i feel like crying somehow as i read Nad's old posts. I remembered those times... When i had a soulmate. when ALL of us hangs out together. When everybody around me is the people i know for a VERY LONG TIME & cherished and loved. but now, even the people i hang out with is one of the people i dislike the most. or annoyed. Now, all the loved ones are spread and have developed new loved ones. But me... im still in the past which is something i must push behind. I hate the fact that them are not always with me like it used to be. And maybe some of em' have changed but that won't stop the love. Never. ugh, fuck this is all fucked. Goodnight
Scumbag212
I don't know how your mind works mother. It's like your thinking only using one corner. And you can never see the big picture or you don't understand at all. Okay, maybe my grammar and stuff is shit right now. The hell i care. Im listening to their stupid bitter talks ! and im bitter as hell people is just that i might never just show it. Well im not saying i have a broken family. Just that my mom is stupid. FULLSTOP.
I have insomnia so i get really tired all the time but i can never shut down. I slept at school a bit cos there was nothing in hell to do. But it wasn't working really. I just closed my eyelids but nothing. It's like leaving your computer on standby it still runs.
i hate the fact that this year, Maths just got a bit tougher and im lazing out. Im always tired and feeling lazy. I get headaches & heartaches often. I just want things to go back the way it used to. Hmm, i don't know.
With all the stress about moving. i can't imagine myself in another house, another school. I can never rest in peace. It's hard enough to have great friends here. It took me a long time to get used to my friends now. Though, i never tell them any of my problem. They're just frineds that makes me happy at school. Nonetheless, i have to admit i love having their existance.
i love him in charlie bartlett and still love him in Terminator. I love you. Bahahahaha ! macam tengah tulis tentang boyfriend.
Myra gave me gossip girl tadi and i watched it with a smile up my butt. I love chuck bass that it hurts so much. I cannot wait for August 31st
i cannot wait for New Zealand :D
i feel like crying somehow as i read Nad's old posts. I remembered those times... When i had a soulmate. when ALL of us hangs out together. When everybody around me is the people i know for a VERY LONG TIME & cherished and loved. but now, even the people i hang out with is one of the people i dislike the most. or annoyed. Now, all the loved ones are spread and have developed new loved ones. But me... im still in the past which is something i must push behind. I hate the fact that them are not always with me like it used to be. And maybe some of em' have changed but that won't stop the love. Never. ugh, fuck this is all fucked. Goodnight
Scumbag212