thoughts
i was just thinking about how the past few years have been rough (dealing with friends)
last year was dana and that whole fight i could not talk to her or even look at her it was that bad.. things are slowly getting better and i am glad we are becoming friends again but i know we will never be the best friends like we were when we were younger but i am glad to be friends again
now this year it is nicole .. the person who i considered my best friend until a month or two ago .. now it's her i cannot look at without feeling pain and sadness i sometimes dont go out with my friends b/c i know she will be there and i dont want to face her .. it is sad how i let someone control me but i am slowly getting use to seeing her around and not letting it affect me ... but its amazing how one thing can change a friendship and destroy it ... i dont know if we ever will be friends again ... who knows .. :( ... maybe one day
also right now im dealing with my cousin who has changed over the past few months and i never see anymore .. but he is happy now so i guess that's all that matters ... but i miss hanging out with him and talking to him
there is one more person who stopped talking to me over the past month.. but i truly dont care anymore ... its his loss if he does not want to be my friend anymore ... i cant do anything about it ... i will just loss another friend .... whats new .. im use to it by now!!!!
now that i had to bring all that up i feel really bad about how things have gone in my life .. but i cannot change anything ... whats done it done and theres no turing back time ... so if they dont want to be my friend o well their loss!!!
its amazing how people can change and friendships are destroyed
thats my thoughts for today!!
last year was dana and that whole fight i could not talk to her or even look at her it was that bad.. things are slowly getting better and i am glad we are becoming friends again but i know we will never be the best friends like we were when we were younger but i am glad to be friends again
now this year it is nicole .. the person who i considered my best friend until a month or two ago .. now it's her i cannot look at without feeling pain and sadness i sometimes dont go out with my friends b/c i know she will be there and i dont want to face her .. it is sad how i let someone control me but i am slowly getting use to seeing her around and not letting it affect me ... but its amazing how one thing can change a friendship and destroy it ... i dont know if we ever will be friends again ... who knows .. :( ... maybe one day
also right now im dealing with my cousin who has changed over the past few months and i never see anymore .. but he is happy now so i guess that's all that matters ... but i miss hanging out with him and talking to him
there is one more person who stopped talking to me over the past month.. but i truly dont care anymore ... its his loss if he does not want to be my friend anymore ... i cant do anything about it ... i will just loss another friend .... whats new .. im use to it by now!!!!
now that i had to bring all that up i feel really bad about how things have gone in my life .. but i cannot change anything ... whats done it done and theres no turing back time ... so if they dont want to be my friend o well their loss!!!
its amazing how people can change and friendships are destroyed
thats my thoughts for today!!