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uh, so drinking the other night was kind of weird. that picture from a couple posts ago, i discovered that on my phone when i woke up. i guess she accidentally sent it from my phone to my blog because, well, the settings were a little fucked up and it would basically happen by accident really easily.
so anyway, it was kind of weird. i don't want to go into it, but mike and steve think i could... in some manner shape or form get with heidi. if made me look back on some older posts, and wow way back in 2006 some crazy stuff was going down.
frankly though, i dunno. i mean... there's been some ridiculous shit between us, and do i really want to go down this road again? i do still kind of like her, but it's like... i dunno. does she just miss me because we haven't hung out, i'm a nice guy and some shit is going down with dudes in her life? or does she just want to try maybe hooking up with a nice guy? or does she just want attention from me and nothing will happen? or does she genuinely like me and it just took her a while to realize it...
i mean, if she likes me because of how lame i am, then that's awesome. if she actually wants to like go on some dates or start a relationship of some kind, that'd be cool and i'd go along with it. if she's not looking for something semi-serious or at the very least exclusive, if she's looking for a rebound... those are all bad for me.
i'm not really sure what to do, i've been doing a lot of thinking. maybe i'll see if she wants to hang out, come to a party, that kind of stuff, but John thinks i need to have a "what the fuck?" moment pretty early on to just get it out in the open and figure out what's up...
some of the guys are going out tomorrow for beers, so maybe i'll soundboard off them and see what they think... jeff may have a different perspective on all this.
frankly, if there's a chance for something to happen, i don't want to have to ask her to find out. if i ask her to hang out, and she and i start hanging out a lot and things happen all normal and natural like, that would be awesome. if she, say, surprised me at work by popping in to visit, or if she called ME to see if i wanted to hang out, i think i'd take that as a sign and that would be SOOO awesome, it would make me really happy.
i dunno... i guess we'll see what happens.
btw, i'd go into more detail about friday night, but i was kind of drunk, and was kind of TERRIBLE at remembering what exactly was said when and about what, so... yea.
in any event... i have to catch the bus in about 7 hours, so i should probably try to go to bed.
so anyway, it was kind of weird. i don't want to go into it, but mike and steve think i could... in some manner shape or form get with heidi. if made me look back on some older posts, and wow way back in 2006 some crazy stuff was going down.
frankly though, i dunno. i mean... there's been some ridiculous shit between us, and do i really want to go down this road again? i do still kind of like her, but it's like... i dunno. does she just miss me because we haven't hung out, i'm a nice guy and some shit is going down with dudes in her life? or does she just want to try maybe hooking up with a nice guy? or does she just want attention from me and nothing will happen? or does she genuinely like me and it just took her a while to realize it...
i mean, if she likes me because of how lame i am, then that's awesome. if she actually wants to like go on some dates or start a relationship of some kind, that'd be cool and i'd go along with it. if she's not looking for something semi-serious or at the very least exclusive, if she's looking for a rebound... those are all bad for me.
i'm not really sure what to do, i've been doing a lot of thinking. maybe i'll see if she wants to hang out, come to a party, that kind of stuff, but John thinks i need to have a "what the fuck?" moment pretty early on to just get it out in the open and figure out what's up...
some of the guys are going out tomorrow for beers, so maybe i'll soundboard off them and see what they think... jeff may have a different perspective on all this.
frankly, if there's a chance for something to happen, i don't want to have to ask her to find out. if i ask her to hang out, and she and i start hanging out a lot and things happen all normal and natural like, that would be awesome. if she, say, surprised me at work by popping in to visit, or if she called ME to see if i wanted to hang out, i think i'd take that as a sign and that would be SOOO awesome, it would make me really happy.
i dunno... i guess we'll see what happens.
btw, i'd go into more detail about friday night, but i was kind of drunk, and was kind of TERRIBLE at remembering what exactly was said when and about what, so... yea.
in any event... i have to catch the bus in about 7 hours, so i should probably try to go to bed.