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I just skimmed over a bunch of my old journals. It's funny reading all the weird things I do, and realizing how frequently I change. I had a laugh when I was reading the journal about my little fling with Caitlin ending. Little did I know then that it would take another few months before I'd get her out of my life. Even littler did I think that I would recieve and bunch of threats and be the victem of extreme amounts of gossip before it would be all over. Then there was that whole situation with Emma and how I can see now that I came on way to strong to that type of person. From just a few recent experiences I understand now that when dealing with someone who's used to very crappy relationships/fling/whatever, you have to go slow with them. They're so used to that crap that anything else might frighten them as it's like uncharted territory. I really learnt that with Daisy. She's a Libra: reluctant to change. She had gone through two years of messed up relationships that were never even official things. Then she moves to Vancouver from Vernon and we start talking more, and bam, a relationship developes. It went too fast but if I hadn't have slowed it down it would've gone even faster. I never thought I'd see a girl cry over a guy not wanting to sleep with them. She was so used to guys just wanting that though that she took it as a sign that I didn't like her. I really thought I might have a good relationship with her too, but her relunctancy got the best of her. She told me she needed to find herself. I told her the truth that she was just scared because this was something more official than she was used to. Something that she could count on to be there for her. Hell, the second time we hung out I spent hours with her while she was crying about being homesick. I clearly cared, and that scared her. It's sad that people do this to themselves and won't let good things happen to them, but I guess that's just human nature, eh?
It amused me as well how excited I was about Bullet Theory and them possibly playing on warped tour. Haha, Lights Below barely got on and they're so much better. I think before I was forcing myself to like Bullet Theory's music and was a bit blinded, or in this case deafened, by the fact I wanted to be doing something with music I really enjoyed. Now that I have no alteria motive to enjoy them I can see their mediocre at best and aren't going anywhere. I highly doubt they're even going to get signed to a small, crappy, indie label. I know they thought Empire Rising was interested in them, but come on, there are much better bands still unsigned. Although I suppose some of those bands, like locals The Februarys, choose to stay unsigned. Being in the band allowed me to grow a lot though and really motivated me with music. I know more of the ins and outs of doing shows and what not to do when touring. It also put some band experience under my belt. The band I'm creating won't operate at all the same though. It won't be two people doing all the writing then showing it to the rest of the band at practice and getting them to write accompanyment. I want to have writing sessions where everyone sits down and brings their ideas to the table. Everyone will put in their 2 cents to the creation of the songs, and that's the way it should always be. If all of the band plays the song, it should mean something to all of them. There would be some songs that just one person has written of course, about some personal experience. That's fine though, a few of those are good. I just want to make sure everyone is inputting into the writting so it ends up being more deverse and interesting.
My character has grown a lot over the past few months as well. I've learnt so much during this past summer gone. I've haven't gotten experience in one area either - it's been attained in many, many different ones. I've learnt a great deal about human nature too. Especially about knowing the wrong things to say to people. Growth is a marvellous thing.
It amused me as well how excited I was about Bullet Theory and them possibly playing on warped tour. Haha, Lights Below barely got on and they're so much better. I think before I was forcing myself to like Bullet Theory's music and was a bit blinded, or in this case deafened, by the fact I wanted to be doing something with music I really enjoyed. Now that I have no alteria motive to enjoy them I can see their mediocre at best and aren't going anywhere. I highly doubt they're even going to get signed to a small, crappy, indie label. I know they thought Empire Rising was interested in them, but come on, there are much better bands still unsigned. Although I suppose some of those bands, like locals The Februarys, choose to stay unsigned. Being in the band allowed me to grow a lot though and really motivated me with music. I know more of the ins and outs of doing shows and what not to do when touring. It also put some band experience under my belt. The band I'm creating won't operate at all the same though. It won't be two people doing all the writing then showing it to the rest of the band at practice and getting them to write accompanyment. I want to have writing sessions where everyone sits down and brings their ideas to the table. Everyone will put in their 2 cents to the creation of the songs, and that's the way it should always be. If all of the band plays the song, it should mean something to all of them. There would be some songs that just one person has written of course, about some personal experience. That's fine though, a few of those are good. I just want to make sure everyone is inputting into the writting so it ends up being more deverse and interesting.
My character has grown a lot over the past few months as well. I've learnt so much during this past summer gone. I've haven't gotten experience in one area either - it's been attained in many, many different ones. I've learnt a great deal about human nature too. Especially about knowing the wrong things to say to people. Growth is a marvellous thing.