Whatever.

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What is wrong with some people? Honestly, did they think they could treat me like shit and I wouldn't care. I know they see me as the quieter, good girl. But that doesn't mean I'll tolerate you treating me so badly. I'm sorry I "bitched you out". No, scratch that. I'm not sorry at all for anything I said. I'm sorry you couldn't handle someone telling you the truth even though it wasn't what you wanted to hear. I'm also sorry you have to listen to someone else to decide how you feel because you aren't mature enough to make your own decisions. But, I'm not sorry for anything I did. You came to me. I tried to help and I did everything in my power to make it work. You thought I wouldn't succeed, but I did. Now after all the stress I've gone through, you're really going to back out? You deserve to be told that you are inconsiderate, you deserve to feel bad, and you deserve to lose a friend. I can't believe you didn't think it necessary to tell me you changed your mind. I can't believe you lied to me, and accused me of doing the same. I can't believe my only 2 good friends here have sided against me. But you know what, that's okay. We want to meet different people and we have different priorities. Maybe it's for the best. You can get yourself out of this mess because you are not my responsibility. I've taken care of myself now and I'm following through with the plans that have been made. You think I can't keep it up, you think I'll come back to you. Guess again. I certainly don't need you. You always worried that people, esp the guys, didn't like you and I always assured you it was nothing to worry about. I've always spared your feelings and tried to help. But you're right, they don't have good things to say about you. In fact, they warned me against you. I know you don't believe that. One girl warned you against me so clearly she must know everything. Apparantly the problem is me and you are perfect. Keep dreaming. You won't make it anyway. I'm going to be stronger than you. The loss of 2 or 3 people is nothing. Just wait until next semester. I'm coming back and starting fresh. All of your friends are leaving now, good luck with that. You treated me like I was nothing and you always put me down just to make yourself feel better. But, I'm done. I don't need to deal with your insecurities. I don't need to deal with you when you get too sick from drinking. I'll never have to help you back or wait all night for you to feel better. I don't need to reassure you of anything. I'm done dealing with your constant mood swings and arguments with everyone. I'm just done. Things will improve now. This is elementary drama. It's ridiculous. I'm not going to play games with you like you want me to. Don't watch me walk around the school and try to get my attention to show off. I really don't care. I'm completely fine with ignoring you and being with other people. You can talk about me all you want. I've realized now that you are too immature to handle anything. If you were afraid of fights, it seems you had every right to be. I didn't expect you to act this way, but if that's how it is then fine. You've made me pretty mad, I haven't felt like this towards anyone since middle school I guess. I can handle it better now. But, yes, I can be a bitch. Deal with it. There's two of you now. You've both complained to me about the other one so it should be interesting to see you handle each other without the middle man. Have a nice life.

Ugh, between that whole situation and finals, I'm pretty stressed out. I'm def making myself sick. But it's over in a couple days and hopefully it pays off. Then, I go home. My birthday is soon and I'll see my friends again. I'm so excited. I just wish I wasn't so happy to leave here. <3