Well..
I didnt think it would change either. I dont want it to but it is. You were not only my first best friend here, you were the first person I wanted to be with, the first person I wanted to see in the morning, and the last at night. I am so thankful that you were there for me. The times I would come and ramble about nothing, and the times when I would come in dragging my heart behind me. I adore you. You are the funniest person I have ever known. All I can seem to think about is the fun times we shared. From you pushing your music upon me to smoking countless cigarettes at night, you made it all worth while. You are still the only person I seem to be comfortable around. I dont know what exactly is happening or why, but I am sorry. I love you. Not only are you incredibly fucking sexy, you are brilliant. You amazed me every time you spoke. I wish I could be half the man that you are woman. You know what you want, and how to get it. Job well done. Im sorry for making you feel like the backburner, I never did that intentionally. I guess now that I think about it, I was being selfish. It was fine for me to have a relationship and be in love, but the thought of you being with another guy made me furious. I just wanted to think that if I ever lose a girlfriend, I would have you. All along it was me who is the asshole. Kudos to you. I love you, that will never change.