Thoughts...
I realized some things about my relationship these past couple of days... I have realized that without Justin, I could not survive emotionally and mentally. We went to the hospital the other morning because his heart was acting up. It has never done that before and he was scared! The doctor's thought he might have a blood clot near his heart, but his CAT Scan came back normal. They couldn't find anything wrong, so we came home. He is doing better, but it scared me so bad. I know that in the past I have taken our relationship for granted and realized that I need him more than anything before. He is such a wonderful person and he cares about people so much that it hurt me to know that he was hurting too. At that moment, I wanted to cure him and tell him that everything would be okay, but I couldn't. I'm the one who always had health problems and emotional issues and he was always there to listen. I never thought in a million years that I would ever have to take care of him the way I did the other night. Thank GOD he is okay and I hope that he stays healthy from now on. I love him so much and I will never again think that I could live without him because we need each other more than anything.
On another note, my baby is starting to drop and get into position for delivery. I go to the doctor on Monday and see if I have dialated yet! My stomach looks like a huge soccer ball and I can't even tie my own shoes. He weighs about five pounds and is almost 18 inches long. I have four weeks left until my delivery date, but I think he will be here early. We got the babies room done and have everything we need for him. I even got a nursing pillow so that when I breastfeed, he will be comfortable! Justin uses the pillow for a headrest at the moment... Anyway, my last day of work is monday as well. I haven't been out of work for more than two weeks since I was sixteen years old, so it will be a nice break. I just hope that I have a fast and normal delivery!
On another note, my baby is starting to drop and get into position for delivery. I go to the doctor on Monday and see if I have dialated yet! My stomach looks like a huge soccer ball and I can't even tie my own shoes. He weighs about five pounds and is almost 18 inches long. I have four weeks left until my delivery date, but I think he will be here early. We got the babies room done and have everything we need for him. I even got a nursing pillow so that when I breastfeed, he will be comfortable! Justin uses the pillow for a headrest at the moment... Anyway, my last day of work is monday as well. I haven't been out of work for more than two weeks since I was sixteen years old, so it will be a nice break. I just hope that I have a fast and normal delivery!