graduation
so im graduating in about two weeks...fantastic, right? cus im sick of all the high school drama, right? sure...theres just this small, ridiculous problem thats been nagging me all year...WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH MY LIFE? everyone, it seems, but me has a plan for their life...im lucky to have a plan for this weekend...i dont know what i really want to do as a career...all my life ive been told what to do, when to do it, why and whatever...but now, all the sudden, im supposed to make decisions regarding the rest of my life...dont get me wrong..ive made major decisions before...its just that they tended to fuck my life up....so im not so sure im the right person to ask about being excited to "get out" as my freind ellen calls it...i just want to curl up in a corner and sob...which is ridiculous, because i never cry...HAH! im a frikken sobbing queen...of lately that is...anyhow...i dont have any plans for my future...and everyone is talking about this and that that they want to do when they graduate...i just want to survive...have a little fun..who knows...maybe ill meet a nice boy i can hold hands with...holding hands...i like that...i want a boy who'll hold my hand...i dont think id worry so much then...