ya.. i fucked up
okay.. its monday nite.. well.. lets back up a bit...
sunday nite.. i decide to talk to trey on AIM.. we talk for awhile and i mention jordan, hes already read my journals, so i say how im a lil excited and want it to go right... then i mention going to the mall for her and myself to get a list of jobs.. trey wants to go... okay... so ill pu tit off till the afternoon instead of going that morning...
come 2 pm when trey is suppost to call monday afternoon, no call.. mom needs to borrow my truck.. great... i ended up waiting till a little after 3... no call.. no trey... so i leave wen my truck gets back..
i go the wrong way on 20-59 at first.. end up having to backtrack once i realize im heading in the direction of Auburn -.- a good and bad idea at the same time... i have $12 to my name.. i could go.. but i wouldnt make it back
so i get to the mall.. walk around.. get a few apps.. go to a store called 'rave' and asked about an appl. for jordan.. they say i can get a list of all the openings up stairs in the mall office.. so i bounce up the stairs.. and the lady is nice enough to give me a list of the jobs for september ahead of time.. hope she dont get in trouble
well.. i get home at a little after 4.. mess around till 7 talking online about when to call jordan... im planning on a little after 9.. maybe closer to 10 so i know shes home.. well.. around 7 i get a phone call from chastidy and manda "hey wanna come watch movies" '-.- *twitches*' i knew i couldnt say no..
a little back story, manda likes me.. and has been pursuing me basically.. but id rather have jordan over her.. but her if nothing else.. i know that sounds selfish but fuck it.. thats how i feel...
so as to not hurt her feelings im like 'sure'.. thinking, ill get home early and call jordan at like 11.. well, we get to watching a movie.. manda passes out on me.. im like '-.-; sonuva...' so it rolls around midnight and shes woken up and talking and some how she ends up grabbing my hand... im like 'damnit.. how do i fix this.. i dont want her rushing me before i find out where me and jordan are'... so after we leave i dont say much.. no 'goodnites' no nada.. i dont want her getting ahead of herself.. cause i dont want her to get hurt.. im a selfish bastard..but not an incensative one
so i get home after midnight almost 1am... to late to call jordan... FUCK!.. so i decide to call her afte rschool today.. i have 2 hours.. im gonna go wash my truck and then call jordan at around 4 and see if she wants to go to teh mall and fill out at some places..
im planning on asking her sometime in the course of te day if she wants to try a relationship or just be friends... im nervous as hell ...
sunday nite.. i decide to talk to trey on AIM.. we talk for awhile and i mention jordan, hes already read my journals, so i say how im a lil excited and want it to go right... then i mention going to the mall for her and myself to get a list of jobs.. trey wants to go... okay... so ill pu tit off till the afternoon instead of going that morning...
come 2 pm when trey is suppost to call monday afternoon, no call.. mom needs to borrow my truck.. great... i ended up waiting till a little after 3... no call.. no trey... so i leave wen my truck gets back..
i go the wrong way on 20-59 at first.. end up having to backtrack once i realize im heading in the direction of Auburn -.- a good and bad idea at the same time... i have $12 to my name.. i could go.. but i wouldnt make it back
so i get to the mall.. walk around.. get a few apps.. go to a store called 'rave' and asked about an appl. for jordan.. they say i can get a list of all the openings up stairs in the mall office.. so i bounce up the stairs.. and the lady is nice enough to give me a list of the jobs for september ahead of time.. hope she dont get in trouble
well.. i get home at a little after 4.. mess around till 7 talking online about when to call jordan... im planning on a little after 9.. maybe closer to 10 so i know shes home.. well.. around 7 i get a phone call from chastidy and manda "hey wanna come watch movies" '-.- *twitches*' i knew i couldnt say no..
a little back story, manda likes me.. and has been pursuing me basically.. but id rather have jordan over her.. but her if nothing else.. i know that sounds selfish but fuck it.. thats how i feel...
so as to not hurt her feelings im like 'sure'.. thinking, ill get home early and call jordan at like 11.. well, we get to watching a movie.. manda passes out on me.. im like '-.-; sonuva...' so it rolls around midnight and shes woken up and talking and some how she ends up grabbing my hand... im like 'damnit.. how do i fix this.. i dont want her rushing me before i find out where me and jordan are'... so after we leave i dont say much.. no 'goodnites' no nada.. i dont want her getting ahead of herself.. cause i dont want her to get hurt.. im a selfish bastard..but not an incensative one
so i get home after midnight almost 1am... to late to call jordan... FUCK!.. so i decide to call her afte rschool today.. i have 2 hours.. im gonna go wash my truck and then call jordan at around 4 and see if she wants to go to teh mall and fill out at some places..
im planning on asking her sometime in the course of te day if she wants to try a relationship or just be friends... im nervous as hell ...