... i ... finally feel better..
its been awhile.. its been a LONG while.. but.. i feel better...
I've been exercising... i skipped today cause i wanted to relax before this weekend.. but ive been making an effort to improve my physical apperance..
Krissy... well.. i broke her heart basically.. and have finally attoned for my sins as it were...and have been forgiven.. youve no idea how much better i feel since being forgiven.. she brightens my days again now.. and makes each one worthwile.. just being able to talk to her >.>
magic the gathering.. a horribly twisted card game i had finally given up on.. i was literally about to give away all my cards to thomas, i finally won again at and am inspired to try harder and win..
Job? well.. i have an interview at 11:30 tomorrow morning at blockbuster in a nearby town.. its a menial job and most would think me a retard for wanting it.. but i do.. i want to work.. i want money again.. i want to help my family.. and i want to help myself
school? i wont be attending auburn this fall with thomas im afraid. I havent had the money to go back.. and i wont.. but i will be attending UAB for 2 semesters while i save up as much cash as possible to go back with
my parents... dont get me started >< my father still bothers me endlessly .. and if he threatens me much more (not physically..) then im probably gonna snap on him.. but id rather not.. i want this job and i want back in school and i want him off my ass and i want things to be happy like they were when i wa sin auburn.. thats what i desire and tahts what i shall have... no more.. and no less
my friends?.. i have 5 true blue friends.. 3 online, and 2 here... the 2 here, i know i can depend on to help me and come through for me no matter what as long as i needed them... and the 3 online would go just as far for me if they were here... one of which is attending a school in georgia this fall and im probably gonna go meet her one weekend...
my exfriends... i HAD at least 30 friends when school ended my senior year... "friends".. yes.. "friends".. 1 betrayed me out of spite.. at least 6 others believe his malicious lies and have abandonded me.. others i dont hear from anymore.. and others still pass me w/o a word... its disheartening.. but.. who needs friends like THAT!? i have 5 real friends.. 5 ppl i know and trust.. and thats more than i could ever begin to ask for .. im glad i have them
i cant explain why ive suddenly had a change of heart.. but i have.. adn i feel better.. my life looks brighter.. like i just went through a night time in my life.. and dawn has finally come.. the suns about to shine, the birds will sing, and the wind will blow gently... and ill have to cut grass >.< hehe.. oh well.. it comes with the base nature of human life..
in anycase.. just know i feel better .. like my life has meaning again and is worth living... im glad.. for the first time in months... im happy.. im genually happy..
I've been exercising... i skipped today cause i wanted to relax before this weekend.. but ive been making an effort to improve my physical apperance..
Krissy... well.. i broke her heart basically.. and have finally attoned for my sins as it were...and have been forgiven.. youve no idea how much better i feel since being forgiven.. she brightens my days again now.. and makes each one worthwile.. just being able to talk to her >.>
magic the gathering.. a horribly twisted card game i had finally given up on.. i was literally about to give away all my cards to thomas, i finally won again at and am inspired to try harder and win..
Job? well.. i have an interview at 11:30 tomorrow morning at blockbuster in a nearby town.. its a menial job and most would think me a retard for wanting it.. but i do.. i want to work.. i want money again.. i want to help my family.. and i want to help myself
school? i wont be attending auburn this fall with thomas im afraid. I havent had the money to go back.. and i wont.. but i will be attending UAB for 2 semesters while i save up as much cash as possible to go back with
my parents... dont get me started >< my father still bothers me endlessly .. and if he threatens me much more (not physically..) then im probably gonna snap on him.. but id rather not.. i want this job and i want back in school and i want him off my ass and i want things to be happy like they were when i wa sin auburn.. thats what i desire and tahts what i shall have... no more.. and no less
my friends?.. i have 5 true blue friends.. 3 online, and 2 here... the 2 here, i know i can depend on to help me and come through for me no matter what as long as i needed them... and the 3 online would go just as far for me if they were here... one of which is attending a school in georgia this fall and im probably gonna go meet her one weekend...
my exfriends... i HAD at least 30 friends when school ended my senior year... "friends".. yes.. "friends".. 1 betrayed me out of spite.. at least 6 others believe his malicious lies and have abandonded me.. others i dont hear from anymore.. and others still pass me w/o a word... its disheartening.. but.. who needs friends like THAT!? i have 5 real friends.. 5 ppl i know and trust.. and thats more than i could ever begin to ask for .. im glad i have them
i cant explain why ive suddenly had a change of heart.. but i have.. adn i feel better.. my life looks brighter.. like i just went through a night time in my life.. and dawn has finally come.. the suns about to shine, the birds will sing, and the wind will blow gently... and ill have to cut grass >.< hehe.. oh well.. it comes with the base nature of human life..
in anycase.. just know i feel better .. like my life has meaning again and is worth living... im glad.. for the first time in months... im happy.. im genually happy..