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hmmmm...not much to say i dont really feel anything right now nothing nada zip...its kinda cool but creepy too...i think im overwhelmingly angry and hurt still but its a detached feeling so it doesnt bother me dont know why im putting this all on here i guess so i can have somewhere to put this stuff. also i learned a valuable lesson from all this shit: It is who you would give your life FOR not TO that you should be with and be happy Together not just one making the other happy at their own expense mind you making someone happy brings its own happiness. But if it pains you to do what they ask or to make them happy then its no longer worth it. Also I discovered Im waaaay too nice and trusting and maybe even Too good a person if such a thing existed so now I guess farewell to childish ideology and innocence and hello to cold hard reality. At least I finally grew up even if it means letting my heart die...or not who knows? only time will tell how I'll come out of this but I wont be the same no one could be not after something like this maybe I'll be a better person maybe I'll be an asshole I dont know and to be honest however I can make the pain go away it doesnt matter...bye guys.