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yesterday it snowed again.. it was kinda nice, but at the same time i wish it would just be spring already.
i came as close as you get to a car accident today. me and melissa were talking in the car, we were driving in the left lane and there were lots of cars in the right lane. so i look over telling her somthing and she goes "kyle!" and look ahead and theres a car pulling out of a gas station. poking through the line of cars in the right lane. i hit the breaks and swerve left and miss it. for some reason stuff like this doesnt affect me the way it should. ive been in so many near-crashes and every time i shake it off like it was nothing, its weird. i get worked up over an abandoned car thinking its a cop and i am unphased by just barely escaping an accident.
it makes me think how easily my life could totally change and become complicated just like that.. i mean my life is complicated, but for the most part, the Lord has given me a pretty easy setup.. i never once seriously debated what i wanted to do in life, or what i wanted to study in college, i had it figured out in 8th grade.. i never had a serious girlfriend till Melissa and i could marry her in a heartbeat.. my family is still together, we arent perfect but we have a our moments. i dont have drama with my friends, ive been healthy so far.. there are just so many blessings its hard to appreciate them sometimes, and if one of those things was taken away or changed, my life would completley change... at this point im just glad the Lord has let me have all these things, even though a change would most likely result in me becoming more faithful to Him.
thats my philosophy for tonight. i am tired now, so im going to bed
i came as close as you get to a car accident today. me and melissa were talking in the car, we were driving in the left lane and there were lots of cars in the right lane. so i look over telling her somthing and she goes "kyle!" and look ahead and theres a car pulling out of a gas station. poking through the line of cars in the right lane. i hit the breaks and swerve left and miss it. for some reason stuff like this doesnt affect me the way it should. ive been in so many near-crashes and every time i shake it off like it was nothing, its weird. i get worked up over an abandoned car thinking its a cop and i am unphased by just barely escaping an accident.
it makes me think how easily my life could totally change and become complicated just like that.. i mean my life is complicated, but for the most part, the Lord has given me a pretty easy setup.. i never once seriously debated what i wanted to do in life, or what i wanted to study in college, i had it figured out in 8th grade.. i never had a serious girlfriend till Melissa and i could marry her in a heartbeat.. my family is still together, we arent perfect but we have a our moments. i dont have drama with my friends, ive been healthy so far.. there are just so many blessings its hard to appreciate them sometimes, and if one of those things was taken away or changed, my life would completley change... at this point im just glad the Lord has let me have all these things, even though a change would most likely result in me becoming more faithful to Him.
thats my philosophy for tonight. i am tired now, so im going to bed