I'm not usually into surveys, but it beats drama.
I'm not gonna lie, I don't really know the answers to a lot of these. I guess that tells me that I just sort of drift through a lot of my life. With a good memory, I really have no other explanation for why I don't know, except that I just haven't really been living in a state of actual consciousness, at least, not until one definite moment, and all of the things since then pertaining to that moment. It isn't really important what it is, but it was the defining moment of my year.
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
By comparison, yes.
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Like I said, it's not important.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Wow. Uhh... probably when my own mother told me I would die alone. That one's up there.
4) Where were you when 2005 began?
Matt's house
5) Who were you with?
Matt
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
Matt's house
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
Matt (it's sort of a tradition, and it's sort of the only one we have left)
8) What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Figured out that sometimes you simply cannot win.
9) Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I did, but I will make more
10) Did anyone close to you give birth?
An aunt, but we aren't really close.
11) Did anyone close to you die?
No
12) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
No
13) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
Well, Wisconsin, Minnesota, and Michigan, so 2 others.
14) What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a) Respect from my parents
b) Something else I'd rather not disclose
15) What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Uhh... My birthday, and I think you know why.
16) What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I don't know
17) What was your biggest failure?
A lot of things. I know you will all think I'm being overly negative or dramatic, but seriously, I feel like the majority of the things I have attempted turned out badly. I'm used to it.
18) Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Injury, I was actually mostly injury free this year, much more so than in past years. Illness: No comment. Don't worry, no STDs or anything, haha, but there might be something, I'd rather let that one chill for a while until I know.
19) What was the best thing you bought?
My mp3 player. Hands down, no questions asked.
20) Whose behavior merited celebration?
I don't know.
21) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Jessi. She wrote me a big long message regarding what happened this spring about three weeks ago, and in no way, shape, or form did she apologize. In fact, she blamed me even more. Not just for what happened, which was my fault, but she blamed me for her reaction. You know what? Fuck that.
22) Where did most of your money go?
Tuition.
23) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I don't get really, really, really excited. I was happy to go to the Warped Tour, I was happy to get my mp3 player, I was happy to come back to school, and now, I'm happy to go home, as much as I hate being there.
24) What song will always remind you of 2005?
Wow. Hmm. Probably All Deliberate Speed by Mae. That or any of the best 5 Death Cab songs.
25) Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder.
ii. thinner or fatter? About the same, which makes me really angry. I've been trying SO hard.
iii. richer or poorer? I don't know. I am broke, and I was broke last year.
26) What do you wish you'd done more of?
Having serious conversations.
27) What do you wish you'd done less of?
Talking to people I don't like.
28) How will you be spending Christmas?
At my Grandma's
29) Did you fall in love in 2005?
I'm not sure yet.
30) If yes, with who?
I think they know. That's what's important
31) If yes, do they know?
They should.
32) Are you still in love with them?
Of course.
33) Do you regret it?
Of course not.
34) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
No.
35) How many one-night stands?
None...that I remember. Haha. No really, none.
36) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
No comment. I keep that stuff private. Less than 50. Hahaha.
37) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't think so.
38) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
Yeah.
39) Who are your favorite new friends?
Lisa. She's really my only new one.
40) What was your favorite month of 2005?
Wow, no idea. Maybe August.
41) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Every day since I met them.
42) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Probably my birthday celebration. That was just out of control.
43) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
I don't know.
44) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
I'm sure I did, whether I meant to or not.
45) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
My mother, as always, and some other people.
46) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
Uhh... I don't know
47) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Probably my birthday celebration.
48) What was your greatest musical discovery?
Wow. You know me. Death Cab For Cutie, Mae, and Keane.
49) What did you want and get?
An mp3 player, the feeling of peace of mind, if only for a moment.
50) What did you want and not get?
An acoustic electric guitar w/ a cutaway, a digital camera, and peace of mind the rest of the time.
51) What was your favorite new film of this year?
New? Uhh... Probably Jarhead, The Island, and Mean Creek (I say and instead of or because I can't pick one, you kn0ow that). Old? Leon.
52) What was your favorite TV program?
The O.C. and Scrubs. I became addicted to both.
53) What was your favorite record from 2005?
Hmm. Transatlanticism by Death Cab, Plans by Death Cab, Destination: Beautiful by Mae, The Everglow by Mae, and Hopes and Fears by Keane.
54) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
Just one (aside from various college and high school productions that don't count), but it was the Warped Tour, so actually like 10 or 12.
55) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Mae at the Warped Tour, although Motion City Soundtrack was quite boss also.
56) did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
More than in previous years, but I wouldn't say a lot, no.
57) did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
None.
58) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Haha. I turned 21, and that should be pretty self-explanatory.
59) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Mutual feelings. I'll stop there.
60) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
The fashionable emo kid. No lie. Square glasses and track jackets. No tight jeans, but lots of Copeland T-Shirts.
61) What kept you sane?
I'm not sure that I am.
62) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Scarlett Johansson. Enough said.
63) How much money did you spend in 2005?
More than ever, I guess. But a lot of it was on other people.
64) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
When to leave a sinking ship, as my advisor put it.
65) What are your plans for 2006?
Make something work out, for once.
66) Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
This is going to be a long answer, but I implore you to read them all.
Death Cab For Cutie- The New Year
So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).
So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one
I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding the map
No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that can hold us back.
Death Cab For Cutie- Transatlanticism
The atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how...
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer
Death Cab For Cutie- Summer Skin
Squeaky swings and tall grass
The longest shadows ever cast
The water's warm and children swim
And we frolicked about in our summer skin
I don't recall a single care
Just greenery and humid air
Then Labor day came and went
And we shed what was left of our summer skin
On the night you left I came over
And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders
Our brand new coats so flushed and pink
And I knew your heart I couldn't win
Cause the seasons change was a conduit
And we left our love in our summer skin
Death Cab For Cutie- Brothers On A Hotel Bed
You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident
On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind
But even at our swiftest speed we couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside.
And I have learned that even landlocked lovers yearn for the sea like navy men
Cause now we say goodnight from our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed.
Keane- Bedshaped
Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of our old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
Keane- Your Eyes Open
Well it's a lonely road that you have chosen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a long time since your heart was frozen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
That it's a lonely place that you have run to
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a lonely end that you will come to
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
Mae- Skyline Drive
Sometimes I run, but I'm not afraid.
Why must you bring up all mistakes that I've made?
She makes me smile, then you come around.
The wind in her hair reflects the sunset I see.
You make it seem like it was yesterday.
But we've come a long way out of the rain.
Can't seem to figure out what happens after this.
Why can't I?
Why must you say I made a mess out of things?
I won't believe it.
Tonight feels right like I'm dancing on air.
I'll make it right, I'll make it right.
Pull over to the station and fill up on fuel.
And what will I do?
Sometimes I drive or ride with my eyes closed tight
because if the skyline looks this way then I don't want to sleep tonight.
Never giving up, always seeking light,
we must always try, try with all our might.
Mae- Someone Else's Arms
Two days and I’ve not slept a wink
with these thoughts that I’ve been thinking.
This is the mark I aim to miss. (again)
You toss and turn, I lie awake,
who knows what I’ve been drinking.
another cheap, meaningless kiss. (to give)
From the beginning,
dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone’s…
I just wanna wake up. [4x]
Six days and I can see the same
brown eyes in this reflection.
Is this the man you say I’ll be? (become)
You toss and turn, I lie awake,
into the sand were sinking.
Holding us back from breathing free (I'm done)
From the beginning,
dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone’s…
I just wanna wake up. [8x]
More than words you keep to yourself.
Like a curse that fares thee well.
One man came, one truth to tell.
All this blame, hammers your way to hell.
I’ve got a feeling it’s not the safest place to start.
This heavy breathing, it seems, we’re better off breaking hearts.
From the beginning, dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone’s…
I just wanna wake up. [8x]
I just wanna wake up in someone else’s arms.
Mae- Tisbury Lane
She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see
If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others
Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
Yeah
She lives on Tisbury Lane
Motion City Soundtrack- Together We'll Ring In The New Year
this must be it
welcome to the new year
the drinks were consumed
the plants were destroyed and the hor'deurves dismantled
i'm not smiling behind this fake veneer
i am often interrupted or completely ignored
but most of all i'm bored
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempts when it always ends the same
why won't you listen to me
why did i come
oh why did i come here
these humans all suck
i'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
i'm not trying to sound so insincere
but the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "wish you were here"
how i wish i could disappear
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempts and it always ends the same
heads up
damage control
there's a ring around her finger
last chance for changing lanes and you missed it by a mile
why won't you listen to me
this must be it
welcome to the new year
Motion City Soundtrack- Hold Me Down
I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.
I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however,
You hold me down
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom..
How will I break the news to you?
Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out.
You hold me down
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloomed..
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you?
There are many others, but I'll stop here.
There. Don't bother reading it if you don't actually care, it's pretty boring.
1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
By comparison, yes.
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Like I said, it's not important.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Wow. Uhh... probably when my own mother told me I would die alone. That one's up there.
4) Where were you when 2005 began?
Matt's house
5) Who were you with?
Matt
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
Matt's house
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
Matt (it's sort of a tradition, and it's sort of the only one we have left)
8) What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Figured out that sometimes you simply cannot win.
9) Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I did, but I will make more
10) Did anyone close to you give birth?
An aunt, but we aren't really close.
11) Did anyone close to you die?
No
12) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005?
No
13) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
Well, Wisconsin, Minnesota, and Michigan, so 2 others.
14) What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a) Respect from my parents
b) Something else I'd rather not disclose
15) What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Uhh... My birthday, and I think you know why.
16) What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I don't know
17) What was your biggest failure?
A lot of things. I know you will all think I'm being overly negative or dramatic, but seriously, I feel like the majority of the things I have attempted turned out badly. I'm used to it.
18) Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Injury, I was actually mostly injury free this year, much more so than in past years. Illness: No comment. Don't worry, no STDs or anything, haha, but there might be something, I'd rather let that one chill for a while until I know.
19) What was the best thing you bought?
My mp3 player. Hands down, no questions asked.
20) Whose behavior merited celebration?
I don't know.
21) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Jessi. She wrote me a big long message regarding what happened this spring about three weeks ago, and in no way, shape, or form did she apologize. In fact, she blamed me even more. Not just for what happened, which was my fault, but she blamed me for her reaction. You know what? Fuck that.
22) Where did most of your money go?
Tuition.
23) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I don't get really, really, really excited. I was happy to go to the Warped Tour, I was happy to get my mp3 player, I was happy to come back to school, and now, I'm happy to go home, as much as I hate being there.
24) What song will always remind you of 2005?
Wow. Hmm. Probably All Deliberate Speed by Mae. That or any of the best 5 Death Cab songs.
25) Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Sadder.
ii. thinner or fatter? About the same, which makes me really angry. I've been trying SO hard.
iii. richer or poorer? I don't know. I am broke, and I was broke last year.
26) What do you wish you'd done more of?
Having serious conversations.
27) What do you wish you'd done less of?
Talking to people I don't like.
28) How will you be spending Christmas?
At my Grandma's
29) Did you fall in love in 2005?
I'm not sure yet.
30) If yes, with who?
I think they know. That's what's important
31) If yes, do they know?
They should.
32) Are you still in love with them?
Of course.
33) Do you regret it?
Of course not.
34) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
No.
35) How many one-night stands?
None...that I remember. Haha. No really, none.
36) How many people did you sleep with in 2005?
No comment. I keep that stuff private. Less than 50. Hahaha.
37) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't think so.
38) Did you make any new friends in 2005?
Yeah.
39) Who are your favorite new friends?
Lisa. She's really my only new one.
40) What was your favorite month of 2005?
Wow, no idea. Maybe August.
41) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Every day since I met them.
42) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Probably my birthday celebration. That was just out of control.
43) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
I don't know.
44) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
I'm sure I did, whether I meant to or not.
45) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
My mother, as always, and some other people.
46) What was your proudest moment of 2005?
Uhh... I don't know
47) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Probably my birthday celebration.
48) What was your greatest musical discovery?
Wow. You know me. Death Cab For Cutie, Mae, and Keane.
49) What did you want and get?
An mp3 player, the feeling of peace of mind, if only for a moment.
50) What did you want and not get?
An acoustic electric guitar w/ a cutaway, a digital camera, and peace of mind the rest of the time.
51) What was your favorite new film of this year?
New? Uhh... Probably Jarhead, The Island, and Mean Creek (I say and instead of or because I can't pick one, you kn0ow that). Old? Leon.
52) What was your favorite TV program?
The O.C. and Scrubs. I became addicted to both.
53) What was your favorite record from 2005?
Hmm. Transatlanticism by Death Cab, Plans by Death Cab, Destination: Beautiful by Mae, The Everglow by Mae, and Hopes and Fears by Keane.
54) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
Just one (aside from various college and high school productions that don't count), but it was the Warped Tour, so actually like 10 or 12.
55) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Mae at the Warped Tour, although Motion City Soundtrack was quite boss also.
56) did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
More than in previous years, but I wouldn't say a lot, no.
57) did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
None.
58) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Haha. I turned 21, and that should be pretty self-explanatory.
59) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Mutual feelings. I'll stop there.
60) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
The fashionable emo kid. No lie. Square glasses and track jackets. No tight jeans, but lots of Copeland T-Shirts.
61) What kept you sane?
I'm not sure that I am.
62) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Scarlett Johansson. Enough said.
63) How much money did you spend in 2005?
More than ever, I guess. But a lot of it was on other people.
64) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
When to leave a sinking ship, as my advisor put it.
65) What are your plans for 2006?
Make something work out, for once.
66) Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
This is going to be a long answer, but I implore you to read them all.
Death Cab For Cutie- The New Year
So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).
So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one
I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding the map
No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that can hold us back.
Death Cab For Cutie- Transatlanticism
The atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how...
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer
Death Cab For Cutie- Summer Skin
Squeaky swings and tall grass
The longest shadows ever cast
The water's warm and children swim
And we frolicked about in our summer skin
I don't recall a single care
Just greenery and humid air
Then Labor day came and went
And we shed what was left of our summer skin
On the night you left I came over
And we peeled the freckles from our shoulders
Our brand new coats so flushed and pink
And I knew your heart I couldn't win
Cause the seasons change was a conduit
And we left our love in our summer skin
Death Cab For Cutie- Brothers On A Hotel Bed
You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident
On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind
But even at our swiftest speed we couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside.
And I have learned that even landlocked lovers yearn for the sea like navy men
Cause now we say goodnight from our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed.
Keane- Bedshaped
Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of our old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
Keane- Your Eyes Open
Well it's a lonely road that you have chosen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a long time since your heart was frozen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
That it's a lonely place that you have run to
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a lonely end that you will come to
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
Mae- Skyline Drive
Sometimes I run, but I'm not afraid.
Why must you bring up all mistakes that I've made?
She makes me smile, then you come around.
The wind in her hair reflects the sunset I see.
You make it seem like it was yesterday.
But we've come a long way out of the rain.
Can't seem to figure out what happens after this.
Why can't I?
Why must you say I made a mess out of things?
I won't believe it.
Tonight feels right like I'm dancing on air.
I'll make it right, I'll make it right.
Pull over to the station and fill up on fuel.
And what will I do?
Sometimes I drive or ride with my eyes closed tight
because if the skyline looks this way then I don't want to sleep tonight.
Never giving up, always seeking light,
we must always try, try with all our might.
Mae- Someone Else's Arms
Two days and I’ve not slept a wink
with these thoughts that I’ve been thinking.
This is the mark I aim to miss. (again)
You toss and turn, I lie awake,
who knows what I’ve been drinking.
another cheap, meaningless kiss. (to give)
From the beginning,
dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone’s…
I just wanna wake up. [4x]
Six days and I can see the same
brown eyes in this reflection.
Is this the man you say I’ll be? (become)
You toss and turn, I lie awake,
into the sand were sinking.
Holding us back from breathing free (I'm done)
From the beginning,
dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone’s…
I just wanna wake up. [8x]
More than words you keep to yourself.
Like a curse that fares thee well.
One man came, one truth to tell.
All this blame, hammers your way to hell.
I’ve got a feeling it’s not the safest place to start.
This heavy breathing, it seems, we’re better off breaking hearts.
From the beginning, dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone’s…
I just wanna wake up. [8x]
I just wanna wake up in someone else’s arms.
Mae- Tisbury Lane
She greets the day with her hair wet
She asks them to vacate the building
Because she's got a plan they don't know yet
And if it goes wrong, there'll be no one to see
If she could just get the word out
God knows she's trying
They're watching her with eyes closed
She's always stuck with the old route
Does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down?
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
No one can know just how she feels
She won't use the phone, she's too tired to pick it up
She's going back to the old way
She sits in the classroom to learn with the others
Please don't give up when it's easy
Don't you know that me and Jesus will cheer you on?
He's the only one that will be constantly everything you need
Will you come back?
It's all she wants to know
She knows she's part of the problem too
Could she let it go?
It'd take a miracle
So that's what I'm praying for
Yeah
She lives on Tisbury Lane
Motion City Soundtrack- Together We'll Ring In The New Year
this must be it
welcome to the new year
the drinks were consumed
the plants were destroyed and the hor'deurves dismantled
i'm not smiling behind this fake veneer
i am often interrupted or completely ignored
but most of all i'm bored
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempts when it always ends the same
why won't you listen to me
why did i come
oh why did i come here
these humans all suck
i'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
i'm not trying to sound so insincere
but the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "wish you were here"
how i wish i could disappear
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempts and it always ends the same
heads up
damage control
there's a ring around her finger
last chance for changing lanes and you missed it by a mile
why won't you listen to me
this must be it
welcome to the new year
Motion City Soundtrack- Hold Me Down
I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.
I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however,
You hold me down
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom..
How will I break the news to you?
Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out.
You hold me down
You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloomed..
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you?
There are many others, but I'll stop here.
There. Don't bother reading it if you don't actually care, it's pretty boring.