remember
I keep telling myself to journal (paper or here) about the restaurant, but I never do. Here's a list though.
Things I Want To Remember:
-> Jason talking about the time he rode his bike from Cali to the Baja, sold his bike super cheap and then hitchhiked back. He had quit school, he said. He said, It was so stupid. He was telling Kylie.
-> Nights like tonight when I take Jason's teasing as just that and not a attack on my confidence.
-> Tyler's jokes.
-> Tyler's singing.
-> How lemon sorbet can be a peace offering: on my second night there Jason gave me a whole spoonful of it after I broke my first dish - a small bowl and I broke it over a bowl of figs so they had to be thrown out.
-> When I was putting away one of the stainless steel bowls and all ~15 of them tumbled off the high shelf, onto the counter and onto the floor. It was so loud. And there were people dining. Jason said, "Trying to find a new instrument, Newt?" He wasn't mad.
-> When Natalie didn't get the food out on time or it went to the wrong table or something and had to bring it back because it was cold and Jason took the plate and smashed it on the floor. Leana: "Smashings things makes him feel better. It just makes me quiet."
-> Jason and Kylie's incessant teasing/playing.
-> When Jason asked if Wisconsin "was a nice city".
-> When Leana made me tea because I had cramps.
So I've been thinking how so many times when dreams come true you don't even realize it because you're living them and not dreaming them...if that makes sense? Knowing that this is true makes times like this - when I realize I'm doing/living something I've been dreaming about for so long - all the more special.
That list makes me feel like the kind of person who wrote the zines I idolized three years ago.
And this, my friends, is why I am not running away.
Things I Want To Remember:
-> Jason talking about the time he rode his bike from Cali to the Baja, sold his bike super cheap and then hitchhiked back. He had quit school, he said. He said, It was so stupid. He was telling Kylie.
-> Nights like tonight when I take Jason's teasing as just that and not a attack on my confidence.
-> Tyler's jokes.
-> Tyler's singing.
-> How lemon sorbet can be a peace offering: on my second night there Jason gave me a whole spoonful of it after I broke my first dish - a small bowl and I broke it over a bowl of figs so they had to be thrown out.
-> When I was putting away one of the stainless steel bowls and all ~15 of them tumbled off the high shelf, onto the counter and onto the floor. It was so loud. And there were people dining. Jason said, "Trying to find a new instrument, Newt?" He wasn't mad.
-> When Natalie didn't get the food out on time or it went to the wrong table or something and had to bring it back because it was cold and Jason took the plate and smashed it on the floor. Leana: "Smashings things makes him feel better. It just makes me quiet."
-> Jason and Kylie's incessant teasing/playing.
-> When Jason asked if Wisconsin "was a nice city".
-> When Leana made me tea because I had cramps.
So I've been thinking how so many times when dreams come true you don't even realize it because you're living them and not dreaming them...if that makes sense? Knowing that this is true makes times like this - when I realize I'm doing/living something I've been dreaming about for so long - all the more special.
That list makes me feel like the kind of person who wrote the zines I idolized three years ago.
And this, my friends, is why I am not running away.