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Ok, update*:
I whittled down the panic and angst from the other night to what was really behind it: I promised myself at camp I wouldn't sit passively in a life I was unhappy with and that is what I was doing.
So: I'm staying in school (which is good when life is good and bad when life is bad) for this quarter, but instead of living at home I'm going to move into town to live with a couple friends. They aren't the kind of friends who nurture my soul, but they're people I feel comfortable with. Being in town will allow me to have more freedom. Right now, the bus to my house quits running at 5 and takes 40 minutes to get to school each day. That's exhausting and annoying and I've been doing it for 4 years. Some road blocks popped up today, but I'm determined.
Thank you so much for all the support you've given me through this, LJ peoples. I can't believe how much it feels like I have a community suddenly.
*Excerpted from an email to Betsy
I whittled down the panic and angst from the other night to what was really behind it: I promised myself at camp I wouldn't sit passively in a life I was unhappy with and that is what I was doing.
So: I'm staying in school (which is good when life is good and bad when life is bad) for this quarter, but instead of living at home I'm going to move into town to live with a couple friends. They aren't the kind of friends who nurture my soul, but they're people I feel comfortable with. Being in town will allow me to have more freedom. Right now, the bus to my house quits running at 5 and takes 40 minutes to get to school each day. That's exhausting and annoying and I've been doing it for 4 years. Some road blocks popped up today, but I'm determined.
Thank you so much for all the support you've given me through this, LJ peoples. I can't believe how much it feels like I have a community suddenly.
*Excerpted from an email to Betsy