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Short version:
*In the past three days two people have implied that me and Sam should be together
*It's shattering my confidence of us staying apart
*And it's shaking up my plans to go visit him
*Also, I have this nifty idea that he should help me build a bike generator in December
Back in like, June or something I went to see a psychiatrist - Dr. Crabbe. I went to get a perscription for thyroid medicine, which he gave me, and seems to be working!
So Monday me and my mum went back in for the check up thing. He spent an insane amount of time talking about Sam with me. Like, that if we love each other than we should be together. That we shouldn't fight it. I didn't quite know what was going on - he almost made me cry because it's been hella hard coming to the firm decision not to be together and he was fucking it all up.
And then, yesterday, I'm telling my co-worker Kim that I might get to go to Vancouver for Christmas to see my best friend. And she's like, "Is that that boy?" And I'm like, "Yeah - my ex-boyfriend. We're not together anymore but he's totally my closest friend." And she looks at me like she doesn't believe me or something and then says, "Well, that's what a partner is, you know - your best friend." And proceded to imply that me and Sam really ought to be together and that we will probably get married.
By the end of the day I'm like, "What the fuck?!" But my Mum and Papa' are behind me and so is Sheik and so is Sam and other people. I really want to talk to Sam, because the we decided we are going to navigate these waters is to be completely honest when ever we start thinking maybe we should be together. Then we can talk it out and take the necessary precautions.
The worst part of all this is that 3 days ago I was totally confident that we'd manage to stay away from each other when visiting. And now my confidence is shattered. And now maybe I shouldn't go up because maybe I'm/we're not ready.
It's only September though. There's plenty of time to figure it all out.
Let's say we do figure it all out, and I do plan to visit him. What if he came to my place before I went up there, helped me build a bike generator, and then we could both go up to Sun Peaks to be with his family for Christmas.
It sounds like a couple, doesn't it? Fuck.
But Michelle and Dave do it, you know. And other people, too. It's possible.
Support would be nice.
*In the past three days two people have implied that me and Sam should be together
*It's shattering my confidence of us staying apart
*And it's shaking up my plans to go visit him
*Also, I have this nifty idea that he should help me build a bike generator in December
Back in like, June or something I went to see a psychiatrist - Dr. Crabbe. I went to get a perscription for thyroid medicine, which he gave me, and seems to be working!
So Monday me and my mum went back in for the check up thing. He spent an insane amount of time talking about Sam with me. Like, that if we love each other than we should be together. That we shouldn't fight it. I didn't quite know what was going on - he almost made me cry because it's been hella hard coming to the firm decision not to be together and he was fucking it all up.
And then, yesterday, I'm telling my co-worker Kim that I might get to go to Vancouver for Christmas to see my best friend. And she's like, "Is that that boy?" And I'm like, "Yeah - my ex-boyfriend. We're not together anymore but he's totally my closest friend." And she looks at me like she doesn't believe me or something and then says, "Well, that's what a partner is, you know - your best friend." And proceded to imply that me and Sam really ought to be together and that we will probably get married.
By the end of the day I'm like, "What the fuck?!" But my Mum and Papa' are behind me and so is Sheik and so is Sam and other people. I really want to talk to Sam, because the we decided we are going to navigate these waters is to be completely honest when ever we start thinking maybe we should be together. Then we can talk it out and take the necessary precautions.
The worst part of all this is that 3 days ago I was totally confident that we'd manage to stay away from each other when visiting. And now my confidence is shattered. And now maybe I shouldn't go up because maybe I'm/we're not ready.
It's only September though. There's plenty of time to figure it all out.
Let's say we do figure it all out, and I do plan to visit him. What if he came to my place before I went up there, helped me build a bike generator, and then we could both go up to Sun Peaks to be with his family for Christmas.
It sounds like a couple, doesn't it? Fuck.
But Michelle and Dave do it, you know. And other people, too. It's possible.
Support would be nice.