trapped
Last night, I sat down next to the toilet at Teen Council and stuck my finger down my throat in hopes of throwing up because my stomach hurt so bad.
I woke up with a stomach ache this morning. It hurt to sit down and there was cramping in my lower stomach all morning. I haven't eaten anything yet and am feeling much better. I think I'll eat a pear in an hour or so. As of today, I'm keeping a strict food/pain diary.
I feel so trapped: I take all the pills my naturopath told me to take, I eat pretty good, I walk everyday. So why does my stomach still hurt so much? It's the same thing with depression: I take my citalopram, I go to therapy, I get outside everyday, I keep track of my thoughts, I do things to take care of myself, I'm aware of my stress levels. So why can't I shake all the sadness?
Also: my new favorite song (thanks to Emily) is "Brick" by Ben Folds Five. (Click to listen).
I woke up with a stomach ache this morning. It hurt to sit down and there was cramping in my lower stomach all morning. I haven't eaten anything yet and am feeling much better. I think I'll eat a pear in an hour or so. As of today, I'm keeping a strict food/pain diary.
I feel so trapped: I take all the pills my naturopath told me to take, I eat pretty good, I walk everyday. So why does my stomach still hurt so much? It's the same thing with depression: I take my citalopram, I go to therapy, I get outside everyday, I keep track of my thoughts, I do things to take care of myself, I'm aware of my stress levels. So why can't I shake all the sadness?
Also: my new favorite song (thanks to Emily) is "Brick" by Ben Folds Five. (Click to listen).