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So yes.
Completely, utterly, totally in love with starzki, have been for a while, and what probably isn't clear is that I've been asking to marry her for as much as a year before we even met in person, as she always says all the right things. But I suppose at those times I was only half-serious. Maybe.
But after only about six months of actually dating, it was pretty clear we were both playing for keeps, and once solid plans for living together began to form it became more and more important to make clear our intentions.
So after about a year I said "Let's get married!" and she said "I don't know maybe!" and then the next day she said "Let's get married!" and I said "I don't know maybe!" and then we said "Okay!" and we got a ring and it was very romantic and pretty and comfortable and well-planned and even though I was darn sure few weeks ago I'm even more certain now that I made a very very very good decision and I hope to be the sort of person who will make her continue to think the same.
It's hard to write about love, but all I know is that to me she is the best qualities in my friends, and the best qualities in my family, and more intelligent, and more kind, and more beautiful than anyone I have ever known. And not just that she is more of these things, it's that she is so much more than these things - miles above, lightyears beyond, worlds and worlds away from anything I have known before, and it's not just her, but us, and that's the part I like the most. I love what she is but what makes this work for me is I love what we are and that's the reason I am giving the rest of my life to her - but not really to her, to us - and that's the thing that's so unique, so scary, so warm, so exciting, so perfect, so beautiful, so new - we have taken what we are, and given it to each other, but not really to each other but to the rest of our lives together, and that's the thing I love, and why I love her.
And besides all this, and other aspects of which I am entirely too polite to report in mixed company, there are the stories we share, and so many conversations that give me a feeling not entirely unlike being six years old and sharing don't tell anyone secrets in a treehouse, and while I still roll my eyes at the "I'll tell you in another life when we are both cats" uber-quirkiness of modern fictional romance, I can see that there is this aspect of our relationship there as well.
We are well enough in love to be unforgivably annoying to witnesses if we did not have the requisite maturity and Herculean self-control to not loveytalk/cuddle/smooch/do each other when in the presence of an audience and I really wish we got more credit for that.
:D
Completely, utterly, totally in love with starzki, have been for a while, and what probably isn't clear is that I've been asking to marry her for as much as a year before we even met in person, as she always says all the right things. But I suppose at those times I was only half-serious. Maybe.
But after only about six months of actually dating, it was pretty clear we were both playing for keeps, and once solid plans for living together began to form it became more and more important to make clear our intentions.
So after about a year I said "Let's get married!" and she said "I don't know maybe!" and then the next day she said "Let's get married!" and I said "I don't know maybe!" and then we said "Okay!" and we got a ring and it was very romantic and pretty and comfortable and well-planned and even though I was darn sure few weeks ago I'm even more certain now that I made a very very very good decision and I hope to be the sort of person who will make her continue to think the same.
It's hard to write about love, but all I know is that to me she is the best qualities in my friends, and the best qualities in my family, and more intelligent, and more kind, and more beautiful than anyone I have ever known. And not just that she is more of these things, it's that she is so much more than these things - miles above, lightyears beyond, worlds and worlds away from anything I have known before, and it's not just her, but us, and that's the part I like the most. I love what she is but what makes this work for me is I love what we are and that's the reason I am giving the rest of my life to her - but not really to her, to us - and that's the thing that's so unique, so scary, so warm, so exciting, so perfect, so beautiful, so new - we have taken what we are, and given it to each other, but not really to each other but to the rest of our lives together, and that's the thing I love, and why I love her.
And besides all this, and other aspects of which I am entirely too polite to report in mixed company, there are the stories we share, and so many conversations that give me a feeling not entirely unlike being six years old and sharing don't tell anyone secrets in a treehouse, and while I still roll my eyes at the "I'll tell you in another life when we are both cats" uber-quirkiness of modern fictional romance, I can see that there is this aspect of our relationship there as well.
We are well enough in love to be unforgivably annoying to witnesses if we did not have the requisite maturity and Herculean self-control to not loveytalk/cuddle/smooch/do each other when in the presence of an audience and I really wish we got more credit for that.
:D