It's clouded and so is my head
The hint of these new tears are sharp.
I try to choke them back.
It's useless.
I am useless against them.
They are beating me with ease.
Everything is hitting me at once...a thousand miles an hour and I feel so overwhelmed...
Friday I missed my last homeroom and art class...i overslept and it i was just so upset because in all of high school homeroom was probably the most special bond I had with three very special people since 7th grade...for 6 years...and AP art was the most amazing class imaginable...this whole year they were my family...so I had no more school but i had to get my teachers to sign my yearbook, chilled with my awesome Renda <3, gave Daniello the picture i drew (clearly i got a huge hug and kiss <3)...then i went in 9th period and hung out with Schmitt and that was my last period of high school
Then babysitting...
Saturday lotsa work
MCR and BNO amazing....sexy BNO shirt...MCR merch guy wanted my number- so weird crazy indian man...I spent the whole night thinking about my uncle...I dunno y,
especially when MCR played Helena..and Gerard was like this is for my grandma, we miss her alot i almost lost it...he is supposed to come down to visit, it will probably be the last time I see him, i just don't understand y good people get sick, people who don't deserve it, he is so much more than an uncle to me...he was been like my dad and my grandpa...i was greeted by him every morning for like two years...we watched tv together every morning..and now i speak to him and he can't even remember what we spoke about in the previous seconds...He is so delerious and i feel so bad for my mom she is so upset, she is gonna take it even harder then me and Im so worried for my grandma I don't know how she is going to handle loosing her son, your children aren't supposed to die before you are
I've never lost anyone, i don't know how to handle this...
Nap at Josh's...came and cried to mark on the phone <3 i love you <3
cry my self to sleep tonight...
<3
so long and goodnight
i'll miss you more everyday your gone
I try to choke them back.
It's useless.
I am useless against them.
They are beating me with ease.
Everything is hitting me at once...a thousand miles an hour and I feel so overwhelmed...
Friday I missed my last homeroom and art class...i overslept and it i was just so upset because in all of high school homeroom was probably the most special bond I had with three very special people since 7th grade...for 6 years...and AP art was the most amazing class imaginable...this whole year they were my family...so I had no more school but i had to get my teachers to sign my yearbook, chilled with my awesome Renda <3, gave Daniello the picture i drew (clearly i got a huge hug and kiss <3)...then i went in 9th period and hung out with Schmitt and that was my last period of high school
Then babysitting...
Saturday lotsa work
MCR and BNO amazing....sexy BNO shirt...MCR merch guy wanted my number- so weird crazy indian man...I spent the whole night thinking about my uncle...I dunno y,
especially when MCR played Helena..and Gerard was like this is for my grandma, we miss her alot i almost lost it...he is supposed to come down to visit, it will probably be the last time I see him, i just don't understand y good people get sick, people who don't deserve it, he is so much more than an uncle to me...he was been like my dad and my grandpa...i was greeted by him every morning for like two years...we watched tv together every morning..and now i speak to him and he can't even remember what we spoke about in the previous seconds...He is so delerious and i feel so bad for my mom she is so upset, she is gonna take it even harder then me and Im so worried for my grandma I don't know how she is going to handle loosing her son, your children aren't supposed to die before you are
I've never lost anyone, i don't know how to handle this...
Nap at Josh's...came and cried to mark on the phone <3 i love you <3
cry my self to sleep tonight...
<3
so long and goodnight
i'll miss you more everyday your gone