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So tonight I decided to go see Tab on her break...well at least I thought she would be on break. Anyway, I left the house and while I was driving through my neighborhood, I noticed that everyone has Christmas lights up. We just got Thanksgiving done and over with, and then you see all this. Usually I don't mind, but this year is different. It just doesn't feel like Christmas. Not yet anyway. Its warm outside tonight. I didn't even need a jacket. I don't think Christmas is gonna be great this year. Usually Im looking forward to it. One of my favorite times of the year. This year is so different. Mom and Dan wont be able to come down, I don't think. When I heard that, I was like..well..fuck it. Seriously. I can't stand not seeing them. My dad is being an ass with being in Harrison and all. We wont get into that. Revah is complaining about being lonely. Hmm...wont get into that either. Oh yeah...and that step sister of mine...yeah well thats another story completely. Anyway, Im just thinking this year it wont be the same. We aren't putting the tree up, and thats my favorite part! I love how this house looks when its all decorated. We aren't even having our party like we usually do. Its all different. I can't believe my family is like this. You'd think it wouldn't be. I remember when everyone was happy...yes even my brother, and even my step sister. Not that my family is completely screwed up. They really aren't...not compared to most people's, anyway. Meh...I think having my friends with me, will be the best part of Christmas this year. Which is great, I love them lots! But, Id like to have my family. This time of the year is usually the only time we really ever spend together. Feels like I lost that this year.