TODAY
So.... Today was a rough day.... I hate to admit that every time I do, but have you ever had your hopes so so so so high up, and got them shot down within a few minutes. I know that the people that did this love me so so much, but it is starting to be too much.... Sick of being sick, but know it is for my own good, and know I deserve everything I get. Its in my head though.... Its not even real. Sometimes I wonder.... The doctors tell me over and over.... I dont care. I will suck it up. NOT SICK NOT SICK NOT SICK NOT SICK. SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. SCREW ON YOUR SMILE SCREW ON YOUR SMILE SCREW ON YOUR SMILE SCREW ON YOUR SMILE. Piercings are over rated anyways no matter how much they are in my dreams. This sucks. Oh well, nothing to complain about. Live is life, and this is mine. I must get used to it. SICK FOREVER AND ITS MY FFAULT. MY HEAD MY HEAD MY HEAD MY HEAD. I deserve this. Its mine. I want to have it over anyone in the world. I dont like people to be in pain. Me, its ok. OK OK OK OK!!!! ITS OK!!!! SICK OF BEING SICK!!!! I LOVE IT I HATE IT!! EMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMO. Crawl in a corner and cry. Tears wont leave my eyes. Its fake. Its all a mind game. Overcome it and you win, give up or loose.... You die. Its your choice. What to choose.... What to choose. I love you all. Please never leave me. LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!! I LOVE LIFE! I LOVE FAMILY!! I LOVE FRIENDS! I LOVE PLUR! I LOVE ME ME ME ME! LIVE!!!!