...i wish
... i wish i could look at you with out you always immedately looking away. i hate that im not there for you, i hate that i know when you hate me. i hate that i can tell when you talk about me, and see it in other peoples eyes. i wish is was the eight grade obx trip so bad ... i could littery never leave thoughs four days of my life and be soooo happy. i wish i didn t want to hug you so bad when ever i saw you ... cause i know i cant. im so afriad i lost you ..
... i wish you knew how much i love you. i wish you didnt always doubt me and never trust what i say ( not that you dont have a reason to ) i kills me that you dont understand how i feel .. its kills me that i kill you. i wish i could hold a serious converstation .... exspecaily with you. i wish you would open up to me and tell me how you feel and tell me whats bothering you. i wish i could just show you the inside of my head. sometimes i feel like you get me so well... and then other times it astonishes me that you have know clue how i feel and how i express it.. no matter how much i tell you...
... i wish you didnt always seem so discusted with me all the time. and so much better than me ... i love you so much but .. i hate that your so over me ( like everyone else should be bye now ).. you were my first real friend that i have at north west.
... i was so afriad i was loosing you as a friend i never really undstood how much it freaked me out and how much you meant to me... im so happy you talked to me today.
... i wish i didnt feel so guitly for your problem ... i feel like im holding her back from being your friend and she always seems so unhappy with me i think that im only hurting you both and i never know what to do. im glad i can talk to you... i really like being your friend.
... i wish i was good enough for her and i could just make her proud. i wish she wouldnt always call me stupid and specail. i wish she didnt always think i was lien.
... i wishs i wasnt always so suprised when people think imj lien cause i lie all the time ... to pretect people to pretect my self and to make people happy. .. .. .. . your just up setting people if you dont.
... i wish i didnt always wish i would die ..
... i wish i could handle when people are mad at me .. i mean geez not everybody is going to always be happy with me ... well lately nobody is .. its just kinda hard somtimes.
... i wish i would shut the fuck up and do something about my own fucking problems intead of telling people and expecting them to fix it..
... i wish you knew how much i love you. i wish you didnt always doubt me and never trust what i say ( not that you dont have a reason to ) i kills me that you dont understand how i feel .. its kills me that i kill you. i wish i could hold a serious converstation .... exspecaily with you. i wish you would open up to me and tell me how you feel and tell me whats bothering you. i wish i could just show you the inside of my head. sometimes i feel like you get me so well... and then other times it astonishes me that you have know clue how i feel and how i express it.. no matter how much i tell you...
... i wish you didnt always seem so discusted with me all the time. and so much better than me ... i love you so much but .. i hate that your so over me ( like everyone else should be bye now ).. you were my first real friend that i have at north west.
... i was so afriad i was loosing you as a friend i never really undstood how much it freaked me out and how much you meant to me... im so happy you talked to me today.
... i wish i didnt feel so guitly for your problem ... i feel like im holding her back from being your friend and she always seems so unhappy with me i think that im only hurting you both and i never know what to do. im glad i can talk to you... i really like being your friend.
... i wish i was good enough for her and i could just make her proud. i wish she wouldnt always call me stupid and specail. i wish she didnt always think i was lien.
... i wishs i wasnt always so suprised when people think imj lien cause i lie all the time ... to pretect people to pretect my self and to make people happy. .. .. .. . your just up setting people if you dont.
... i wish i didnt always wish i would die ..
... i wish i could handle when people are mad at me .. i mean geez not everybody is going to always be happy with me ... well lately nobody is .. its just kinda hard somtimes.
... i wish i would shut the fuck up and do something about my own fucking problems intead of telling people and expecting them to fix it..