naive
*sigh*
my emotions are so messed up right now. i used to think that i could tolerate everyone. that there was no one without some good in him or her. im so naive. today i had my "grad party" thrown by my youth group. sry guys, was told to keep it with the youth group so no invites. anyways. they showed up around 1 and we left to see spiderman 2 (gonna see it again before it leaves the theater...def recommend it). we came back and openned presents. got a lot of nice things and enjoyed the food and talk. foosball and pool were next and ive started to get my game back so it should be alright.
anyways, this is where it gets yucky. i was in the front yard shooting my bro's bow and arrow that he had gotten earlier in the wk. regretfully i let one of my bro's friends use it once and he didn't kno the limits of the bow. so he shot the arrow extremely high and it skimmed the roof of our neighbor's house. *sigh*
soon after, the garage openned and he came out in a not so happy stalk. he shouted "what the hell was that?" "we heard it hit the house" "do u kno wut the hell you're doing?" as i calmly kept saying how sorry i was and how the one skimmed harmlessly off the roof. he kept shouting and a few of the arrows previously had landed on the edge of their yard close to the border between our properties. his wife had just come out of the garage and looked at us. he turned towards her and said "this is the last damn thing i need" and then he took the two arrows out of his lawn and flung them at me while shouting "keep these damn things in ur lawn" all the while im still apologizing and such. now he flung them with some force...not just tossing them. they flew at me. but in any case im a wreck now.
he had always seemed like a nice man. complementing the way our house looked as i was putting up the front two doorway lanterns. i thought he was a more understanding person since he had a son (older but a son nonetheless) and worked on the car in the garage with him. ugh. in a way i understood that he would be annoyed with an arrow skimming off his roof however i didn't think that this situation called for such rude remarks and gestures. i was mad that he did not understand that we had made an honest mistake and that he didn't care for our apology. i was mad that he would treat us in such a way without a worthy reason. ugh. ive lost a lot of faith in the way people treat others without respect. yes, he's allowed to repremand us but y in a way that we are treat with no understanding. we're just kids. i would have thought he'd understand to the degree that he would tell us to not shoot it into his yard anymore and offer suggestions and in the end simply be friendlier. it's not as if we had done anything to deserve such treatment before. ughh...
i used to think that all ppl had a sense of friendship and understanding where rational thought could be an ally. instead. ppl who think they're superior to others simply have to sink to such a level in communication. im such a wreck right now that i can't even write a complete thought. i hope i can get past this.
why couldn't elisha cuthbert be my neighbor???
my emotions are so messed up right now. i used to think that i could tolerate everyone. that there was no one without some good in him or her. im so naive. today i had my "grad party" thrown by my youth group. sry guys, was told to keep it with the youth group so no invites. anyways. they showed up around 1 and we left to see spiderman 2 (gonna see it again before it leaves the theater...def recommend it). we came back and openned presents. got a lot of nice things and enjoyed the food and talk. foosball and pool were next and ive started to get my game back so it should be alright.
anyways, this is where it gets yucky. i was in the front yard shooting my bro's bow and arrow that he had gotten earlier in the wk. regretfully i let one of my bro's friends use it once and he didn't kno the limits of the bow. so he shot the arrow extremely high and it skimmed the roof of our neighbor's house. *sigh*
soon after, the garage openned and he came out in a not so happy stalk. he shouted "what the hell was that?" "we heard it hit the house" "do u kno wut the hell you're doing?" as i calmly kept saying how sorry i was and how the one skimmed harmlessly off the roof. he kept shouting and a few of the arrows previously had landed on the edge of their yard close to the border between our properties. his wife had just come out of the garage and looked at us. he turned towards her and said "this is the last damn thing i need" and then he took the two arrows out of his lawn and flung them at me while shouting "keep these damn things in ur lawn" all the while im still apologizing and such. now he flung them with some force...not just tossing them. they flew at me. but in any case im a wreck now.
he had always seemed like a nice man. complementing the way our house looked as i was putting up the front two doorway lanterns. i thought he was a more understanding person since he had a son (older but a son nonetheless) and worked on the car in the garage with him. ugh. in a way i understood that he would be annoyed with an arrow skimming off his roof however i didn't think that this situation called for such rude remarks and gestures. i was mad that he did not understand that we had made an honest mistake and that he didn't care for our apology. i was mad that he would treat us in such a way without a worthy reason. ugh. ive lost a lot of faith in the way people treat others without respect. yes, he's allowed to repremand us but y in a way that we are treat with no understanding. we're just kids. i would have thought he'd understand to the degree that he would tell us to not shoot it into his yard anymore and offer suggestions and in the end simply be friendlier. it's not as if we had done anything to deserve such treatment before. ughh...
i used to think that all ppl had a sense of friendship and understanding where rational thought could be an ally. instead. ppl who think they're superior to others simply have to sink to such a level in communication. im such a wreck right now that i can't even write a complete thought. i hope i can get past this.
why couldn't elisha cuthbert be my neighbor???