long day

[screbel]

well im sitting here in spartanburg at my friend davids house. and i must say this is a pretty nice laptop im typing on. the ride was pretty fun although we almost ran off the road thanx to someone who was driving *ahem* Billy *ahem*. but we're here fine and hopefully we'll have a safe trip back. idk what it is with me but ive had this feeling of worriedness and scaredness all day long. i dont know why i feel this way but i do. im still feeling horrible for this past week cause i had to work on saturday and didnt get to spend time with lulu. she told me that she would wait forever for me but to me thas too long. i feel so bad for her for having to wait for me. she deserves so much better. i will love her until i leave this earth. i just dont want her to give up hope with me or grow impatient cause she's been waiting so long to see me. i mean if roc schedules me to work on saturday then ima turn in my keys and walk right out the door. i dont care cause my cars paid off and i pretty much have no financial obligations to worry about besides insurance and cell phone bill. i mean there is life after park terrace. i just dont understand why he cant respect my request for one specific day off in the week. just cause he said it would mess up his sunday off if he doubled on saturday. what kinda crap is that??? i just dont understand ppl now adays. im just ready to go to school and graduate and get a real job so i can look back and laugh my head off at these bad memories of park terrace. idk i guess ive had enough venting for one day so im outty. peace. B

p.s.-lulu im sorry i didnt call you tonight we got to watching punisher and i lost track of time. hope you're not mad and still love me. well ttyl my kind of rain!