I`m such an f-ing idiot....

[screatch]

Guuuuuuuuuuh! I thought Wednesdays were my sucky days....but appearently today sucks too. I mean i`m sitting here, bawling my eyes out yet again because i`m an idiot who`s hopelessly in love, and who`s again and again rejected. I fuckin` hate myself for getting kicked in the face and then going back again for more, with a smile just to be kicked again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do i keep hoping??!?! And dont say `cause hope dies last...cause well i fuckin wanted to die now! I`m tired of this bullshit. Why cant i control myself?!?!

P.S.: Nothing actually happened, but thats the whole point....i dont even know what the hell i expected?!