I want to be someone else or i'll explode....
This sux...I know i'm losing alot of people...ALOT...I dunno..I want to do something but i've just really lost it,maybe i'm getting depressed or something? I dunno, I hope not..i've noticed i've been real bitchy lately and not myself at all.My mass of connections has turned close to zero due to me just saying fuck it but i've kinda been working on that but I could do so much better. But I don't even really care about that, mostly just my friends...i'm hating this post already cuz i'm being whiny...fuck...wheres alcohol when you need it?I need a cig...real bad...i've been so stressing out lately..i've been doing okay to pretty good in skewl..i could once again do alot better but my life is like stuck in a hole so i don't feel like putting much effort into it.I just need to be 18, I hate getting into fights with my parents which I do whether i'm there or just on the phone whether its for 5 minutes talking to them or spending the whole day there.Its always over something stupid and could completely be avoided and talked about but it never happens cuz i can't swallow my pride for the fact its something so stupid and they just seem to love putting me in that position.Shyt..I am depressed...fuck that shyt go to fucking hell...pot needs to be legalized...I want it to so bad...blah..well i've been staying away from it pretty well recently..thats good...i guess...I need something good in my life right now that i can just be like hey, thats really fucking awesome...blah...fuck it doubt i'll make it to 18 anyway....
Go take a look through the window, you'll see me hanging out by a tree, then you come to realize i'm not hanging out...i'm just hanging...
Go take a look through the window, you'll see me hanging out by a tree, then you come to realize i'm not hanging out...i'm just hanging...