An entry just for Laura Bug!
Hi Laura Bug! I decided that I would write an entry that you could read, cause your my bestest buddy! You have always been there for me even thought I wasnt the best of friends. Im glad that we are still really good friends. Well, I hope you enjoy reading this!
Im going through some of my old journal entries and its pretty scary...lol. But here are some good ones. And maybe a few bad ones.
July 14th, 2004
13 Days until Justin gets back! YAY! Im really excited! The first month that we will have gone out I wont have seen him at all. Thats a little hard...but we get to talk a lot so...its all good. Distance is a hard thing to deal with...but its definately worth the wait. Im excited with thirteen days left...I cant imagine the last two days...I am going to be so anxious! AHHH! that will be so awesome... ha... anyway...Im like spazzing out at the moment! Im so excited! AHHH! Thirteen days! this month has gone by so fast! My mom said not to wish my summer away...but I did anyways. I cant help it. I just want it to be the 27th already. I want him to be here or I want to be there. I miss him...a lot...a lot a lot.
Skaterstrat182: hey....if you could have one wish right now...what would it be
SilverEuphoria06: that you were here or I was there
Skaterstrat182: really?
SilverEuphoria06: yeah
Skaterstrat182: cause i would wish that i was there
Skaterstrat182: :-D
SilverEuphoria06: :-D
Skaterstrat182: or that you were here
well I have been sitting here for almost a half hour...talking to Justin...and trying to think what to write...but I dunno what else to write..so I will write later...
Wow...Im not going to post entries about certain ones, but I had completely forgotten about. The whole Phil being a monitor over Justin and I. How people got mad at me for not being friends with him...how my best friend (at the time) turned on me because of it. Its kinda sad that most of my entries are either angry or sad.
May 12th, 2005
Have you ever come to a point in your life where you find certain things not worth your time? I suppose that everyone has. Things change, people change. And theres nothing that can be done to stop the changes. But some changes are for the better. Leaving a part of your life behind, because it wasnt worth it. Moving on without that part of you that you can be without. Ive come to one of these times and Ive had a taste of freedom without this not neccesarry thing and I like it. Its addicting. It makes me feel oh so much better when its gone. Leaving it behind has changed the way I see things. It makes me happy, the way that I am now. I have REAL friends, the absolute best boyfriend ever, I smile...its almost euphoric. I have friends who wont ditch me because of some excuse they made in their head, who deal with differences, and who actually treat me like a friend, which means they actually care.
Well, other than that, I dont really have anything interesting to put in.
Justin is still sleeping. Hes cute when he sleeps. *smiles*
I have to get Morgahnn food and then I have to work 430-10. Joyous, right?
Im really excited about the Washington D.C. trip. Even though Im not much of a Six Flags person, it will be fun. *grins* Plus I get to spend most if not all vacation with Justin! My dad wants to chaperone the trip, which will be kind of cool, considdering we dont really do much together anymore.
Yesterday I opened my bank account...theres $625 in saving and $130 in checking. Thats not too bad, huh? Im excited...isnt that sad? Im getting an ATM card too, which is cool. LOL. Im such a goober.
Becca
Im going through some of my old journal entries and its pretty scary...lol. But here are some good ones. And maybe a few bad ones.
July 14th, 2004
13 Days until Justin gets back! YAY! Im really excited! The first month that we will have gone out I wont have seen him at all. Thats a little hard...but we get to talk a lot so...its all good. Distance is a hard thing to deal with...but its definately worth the wait. Im excited with thirteen days left...I cant imagine the last two days...I am going to be so anxious! AHHH! that will be so awesome... ha... anyway...Im like spazzing out at the moment! Im so excited! AHHH! Thirteen days! this month has gone by so fast! My mom said not to wish my summer away...but I did anyways. I cant help it. I just want it to be the 27th already. I want him to be here or I want to be there. I miss him...a lot...a lot a lot.
Skaterstrat182: hey....if you could have one wish right now...what would it be
SilverEuphoria06: that you were here or I was there
Skaterstrat182: really?
SilverEuphoria06: yeah
Skaterstrat182: cause i would wish that i was there
Skaterstrat182: :-D
SilverEuphoria06: :-D
Skaterstrat182: or that you were here
well I have been sitting here for almost a half hour...talking to Justin...and trying to think what to write...but I dunno what else to write..so I will write later...
Wow...Im not going to post entries about certain ones, but I had completely forgotten about. The whole Phil being a monitor over Justin and I. How people got mad at me for not being friends with him...how my best friend (at the time) turned on me because of it. Its kinda sad that most of my entries are either angry or sad.
May 12th, 2005
Have you ever come to a point in your life where you find certain things not worth your time? I suppose that everyone has. Things change, people change. And theres nothing that can be done to stop the changes. But some changes are for the better. Leaving a part of your life behind, because it wasnt worth it. Moving on without that part of you that you can be without. Ive come to one of these times and Ive had a taste of freedom without this not neccesarry thing and I like it. Its addicting. It makes me feel oh so much better when its gone. Leaving it behind has changed the way I see things. It makes me happy, the way that I am now. I have REAL friends, the absolute best boyfriend ever, I smile...its almost euphoric. I have friends who wont ditch me because of some excuse they made in their head, who deal with differences, and who actually treat me like a friend, which means they actually care.
Well, other than that, I dont really have anything interesting to put in.
Justin is still sleeping. Hes cute when he sleeps. *smiles*
I have to get Morgahnn food and then I have to work 430-10. Joyous, right?
Im really excited about the Washington D.C. trip. Even though Im not much of a Six Flags person, it will be fun. *grins* Plus I get to spend most if not all vacation with Justin! My dad wants to chaperone the trip, which will be kind of cool, considdering we dont really do much together anymore.
Yesterday I opened my bank account...theres $625 in saving and $130 in checking. Thats not too bad, huh? Im excited...isnt that sad? Im getting an ATM card too, which is cool. LOL. Im such a goober.
Becca