Chapter 1.5: Honey It's Just the Start of It
*Author's Note: This chapter took forever because LiveJournal was giving me lots of problems. Thankfully it's fixed itself. (i hope). and sorry for that other blank entry if you saw it. -__-' anyway, enjoy the chapter (: *
After the fight between Abbie and I, we didn't talk for a few days unless it was absolutely necessary. I was mourning my dad, and she wanted no part in that. I pushed that aside though, my dad was gone, but Abbie was still here, and the only person I had left. I didn't want her leaving me too.
"Abbie, I love you. I'm sorry for yelling at you-- I was just; Dumb.. High? And I hate when we can't talk to each other. I need you here with me." I grabbed her hand and looked straight in her eyes too, it was a legit apology, and I did it real good.
"Aw, Babe I love you too," She said as she hugged me. A mutual apology would've been nice, but I wasn't about to start another fight about that.
"So how 'bout I call the day off and we spend the day together my love?" I asked, trying to make things even better.
"I'd love that!" She looked at me, her eyes glowing. There wasn't many places to visit in Sunset Valley, no clubs, no bars; So what better place to visit than the park? The park was actually one of the most heartfelt places I'd been to in a long time. We weren't partying, we weren't drunk; It was just us, on the swings, talking. I felt like an innocent kid all over again.
Later that day, we really made up; No innocence included.
Everything was perfect for awhile. We were saving up money, and we were happy. Drugs was a habit we never quite dropped though, and I never forgot the fact that my dad was dead, because we didn't face a challenge. I don't know why I considered this happiness a permanent change. Nothing in my life has ever stayed perfect for too long; It wouldn't be reality that way, right? Abbie dropped the bomb on me, that screwed over the happiness.
"Danny, I've gotta tell you something.. You better brace yourself for some shit.."
I just stood there, I didn't know where she was going with this.
"I'm," She chuckled sarcastically, "Pregnant.." Pregnant?? PREGNANT? My mind was screaming YOU'RE FUCKED DANNY. I didn't want a kid, in fact, I had secretly promised myself I would never have any. That was a responsibility I didn't want; What if my kid killed someone or something? Yupp, that's the person I raised.
"How could you get pregnant?! We always used protection! Always. I hope you haven't been cheating when you--" She cut me off.
"DANNY! Don't even go to cheating! Of course I didn't cheat on you! You sound fucking ridiculous even asking me that; It's our kid." I knew she was right, accusing her of cheating was a cliche, douche move.
"I know.." I sighed. "I'm sorry. I just-- Need some time to take it in."
"I knew you would," She said, a slight smile on her face. Shit, these pregnancy hormones were making her way more understanding and unargumentitive than usual.
Eventually, it did sink in. I was going to be a dad whether I liked it or not, and now I promised myself I'd be an amazing one; My entire life was to be dedicated to this little boy or girl. With this pregnancy came a whole new set of problems, Abbie was always in pain, and always complaining about it. She barely got any sleep for those long nine months either. I was tired too, but I tried to make her feel better anyway. I remember the first time I felt that baby moving around. A new life just waiting to enter this crazy world. It was probably a little tight in there; Just a few more months kid.
The scariest part of the entire situation though, was that Abbie never dropped the drugs. She still smoked, she still drank, she still did everything they tell you to not do when you're pregnant. I'd tell her everyday what could happen to our baby if she kept this up. I'd always tell her she had to quit now, but she always ignored me, until one day she snapped.
"I heard you the first time Danny! I'm doing everything less than I used to! Can't you tell I'm trying?! You can't just quite this kinda stuff! Stop treating me like I'm the bad guy!"
"I'll quit with you! You don't have to do this alone, I'll do it with you. Please, please! This is for our baby Abbie!" I sounded hopeless.
"NO!" Was all she yelled back at me. She wasn't willing to give up all of her drugs for the new life growing inside of her.
Abbie's doctor wanted her so badly to quit. The doctor gave her all sorts of classes to go to for help, but she never went. I dropped all of the drugs, hoping that Abbie would see that if I could do it, so could she, but she never stopped. She didn't care to stop, even if it put a life in danger.
She went into labor a month early, the first devastating sign that our baby would not be born healthy.
Her labor was short, and out popped my beautiful daughter, Light Scream. We named her Light because she was the new "light" of our lives. A whole new, different point that changed our lives forever, but in an amazing way. She was the tiniest thing I'd ever seen in my life. Everything had seemed terrible when Light was still in the womb, but now I knew she'd grow up to be perfect. The doctors were worried anyway. Weren't those guys always worried?
They told us that she'd have to stay in the hospital until they could be sure out that she was going to be okay at home. Like I said, I knew she was perfect, but there's always that unnecessary concern with those damn doctors.
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