tryin to cope, tryin to survive
i just thought it appropriate to post after a while....
many things have happened this past week...
i feel weak...i feel weaker everyday...
my body's deteriorating
taking it's way to total destruction
the weekend was filled with a lot of singing...perhaps a little too much
rehearsals, concerts and all that shit
i think we did pretty well, considering the fact that we suck ass...especially when people don't care if they know the actual notes or not
last monday...during rehearsal, my choir director told me to sing down a bit (meaning, i was a little too loud)...TWICE!, he told me that twice in one rehearsal....
i saw my music carreer crumbling down in front of my eyes...i cared too much to the point of me wanting to break down and cry...suddenly, i wasn't the person i thought i was...someone who knows all the notes...and i know i knew all the notes...and i hate the fact that i stick out just because a lot of the other people in my voice part don't sing out because they are clueless as to what they are doing....fuck!...the choir director was telling us to be a leader and not a follower...and then there was me...he threatened us that he will start going down the line to make us sing our parts individually to see who doesn't know their notes...well, fuck yeah! i do want him to do that...but he has no guts to do so...his faggoty sissy ass just doesn't have the guts to do it...
*sigh* breathe in...breathe out....
im falling apart on my studies...and it sucks that this is happening when i only have one month of classes left...im tired...and i just can't seem to make myself do the work...
routines...that's what my life has been like...it's tiring...it's annoying...it's the same thing everyday...
i got into the Fordham Spring Cabaret...yay...i don't even know if i can find time to do the rehearsals for this...but yay!
im in search of new things to try...i constantly find myself needing to spice up my life...
i've been thinking about this for a while....a tattoo?
i was thinking of getting one on my back...right on top of my buttocks (im not sure if im describing it right) but yeah...
*sigh*
many things have happened this past week...
i feel weak...i feel weaker everyday...
my body's deteriorating
taking it's way to total destruction
the weekend was filled with a lot of singing...perhaps a little too much
rehearsals, concerts and all that shit
i think we did pretty well, considering the fact that we suck ass...especially when people don't care if they know the actual notes or not
last monday...during rehearsal, my choir director told me to sing down a bit (meaning, i was a little too loud)...TWICE!, he told me that twice in one rehearsal....
i saw my music carreer crumbling down in front of my eyes...i cared too much to the point of me wanting to break down and cry...suddenly, i wasn't the person i thought i was...someone who knows all the notes...and i know i knew all the notes...and i hate the fact that i stick out just because a lot of the other people in my voice part don't sing out because they are clueless as to what they are doing....fuck!...the choir director was telling us to be a leader and not a follower...and then there was me...he threatened us that he will start going down the line to make us sing our parts individually to see who doesn't know their notes...well, fuck yeah! i do want him to do that...but he has no guts to do so...his faggoty sissy ass just doesn't have the guts to do it...
*sigh* breathe in...breathe out....
im falling apart on my studies...and it sucks that this is happening when i only have one month of classes left...im tired...and i just can't seem to make myself do the work...
routines...that's what my life has been like...it's tiring...it's annoying...it's the same thing everyday...
i got into the Fordham Spring Cabaret...yay...i don't even know if i can find time to do the rehearsals for this...but yay!
im in search of new things to try...i constantly find myself needing to spice up my life...
i've been thinking about this for a while....a tattoo?
i was thinking of getting one on my back...right on top of my buttocks (im not sure if im describing it right) but yeah...
*sigh*