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I've been uber depressed lately...
Maybes it's because my mom and dad's anniversary is on the 25th this month or...perhaps, i don't hear much from the person i wanna hear from.
My stupid fucking roommate gareth isn't helping the situation either.
He wants terrence and I to clean up his mess cause his friend, Joanna or whatever, is coming to LIVE here i guess...from florida.
God forbid him to clean.
Whatever.
It's sad.
I hate when i don't hear from anyone unless they want something from me. (family, not friends.)
At least my mom calls me everyday, just to make sure im doing alright and to say she loves me.
We went and visited my dad's grave (at least, we thought it was him.. hard to tell with no plate on it yet.) yesterday. She almost cried talking about what she wanted to do to make it more suitable for him.
She put a blue flower in the dirt on mothers day for him.
Sometimes i feel im a terrible friend, and i know it.
Im sorry.
My phone's totally messed up, but im getting a new one, again...soon. This month sometime. So, sorry if i've missed your call because my phone doesn't tell me anything anymore.
I want to take pictures of people sooooo bad... do their make-up and hair all crazy... do Bright colored pictures and some black and white sad ones.
The kind where you gaze at them and you can almost cry from the feeling the person has in their eyes.
Makes me wanna cry thinking about it.
And im talking about, the CLOSE up pictures where you stand in front of a black wall, and cry so you can really feel the emotion.
i want to that.
So, if you're interested tell me please. Last time i asked, i got nothing..:(
but...gotta go let Noah out now.
He's playing with my water bottle cause he loves the noise it makes.
You're all beautiful, in my heart, and i love you.
Maybes it's because my mom and dad's anniversary is on the 25th this month or...perhaps, i don't hear much from the person i wanna hear from.
My stupid fucking roommate gareth isn't helping the situation either.
He wants terrence and I to clean up his mess cause his friend, Joanna or whatever, is coming to LIVE here i guess...from florida.
God forbid him to clean.
Whatever.
It's sad.
I hate when i don't hear from anyone unless they want something from me. (family, not friends.)
At least my mom calls me everyday, just to make sure im doing alright and to say she loves me.
We went and visited my dad's grave (at least, we thought it was him.. hard to tell with no plate on it yet.) yesterday. She almost cried talking about what she wanted to do to make it more suitable for him.
She put a blue flower in the dirt on mothers day for him.
Sometimes i feel im a terrible friend, and i know it.
Im sorry.
My phone's totally messed up, but im getting a new one, again...soon. This month sometime. So, sorry if i've missed your call because my phone doesn't tell me anything anymore.
I want to take pictures of people sooooo bad... do their make-up and hair all crazy... do Bright colored pictures and some black and white sad ones.
The kind where you gaze at them and you can almost cry from the feeling the person has in their eyes.
Makes me wanna cry thinking about it.
And im talking about, the CLOSE up pictures where you stand in front of a black wall, and cry so you can really feel the emotion.
i want to that.
So, if you're interested tell me please. Last time i asked, i got nothing..:(
but...gotta go let Noah out now.
He's playing with my water bottle cause he loves the noise it makes.
You're all beautiful, in my heart, and i love you.