Your done.

May 23, 2005 08:46


Sorry I haven't updated in a while, this have just been too awsome.....not. Well since I haven't writin in a while, I suppose we should make this one as long as possible. Even though theres not much to talk about, everythings just slowly die'ing down as usual.

Today was the sports banquit thing and I wasn't going to go due to lazyness But I got hungry at like 5:45 and realized it was a free spegetti dinner so why the hell not just go. I didn't feel like playing the social outcast today. Me and seth tryed to start our own table to be cool, yet that failed. Ended up sitting with ted, lauren, seth and sam. speakin of sam, haven't talked or seen her around lately. I guess were not allowed to talk to each other anymore. I want to talk to her but I sort of think to myself when Im about to talk to her, what the hell is she gonna want to say to me, just don't bother. And thats when I walk away, but at the same time, I know it's not what I should do it. But enough of that. I saw coach ross at the banquit, still the AHole. They had these awsome cubes of icecream that I want so bad, I want to make a huge like....walk in house with the cubes of icecream. And now that I mention icecream, I've been hangin out at the mall with drew and lauren and annie the last 2 weekends, couldn't be funner.It was nice havin the gang back together.

Annie seems to be doin good, I used her cellphone and called her gay boyfriend David and told him he had a small dick and all this shit and he got ripped and "dumped" annie and all that whatnot, haha. The kid sucks dick, we all know it. Lauren is better than ever if you ask me, still as pretty and funny and cool like shes always been. Shes still dating Zack, of course. I think they're having their 1 year aniversery soon, thats good i guess. Its funny cuz just 3 weeks ago, I hadn't talked to her in like 3 months and now I can't wait to see her again. But the more I think about it, the more it hurts. She reminds me of who I used to be, the person I wish I still was. She reminds me of the old days when things didn't matter and when everyone was everyones friend and everyone got along and you didn't have to stay to your "group" of friennds. She reminds me of how simple life used to be, and the wierd thing is, I've completly changed since those days when, in all honestly, I don't she has one bit. Thats whats so horrible about it, I wish I could go back in time and told her how much it was worth. But now its worth nothing becuase It never started. What the hell, I've gone on for a whole paragraph about some one who I've hung out with twice in the last what? 5 months? Gone on about something that never existed. But I guess its my fualt, like it always has been, who can blame me.\

Anyways, while I was talking to lauren at the mall she was teling me about how marissa is so happily going out with dom now, big surprise there....Lauren said she wanted to come becuase I was gonna be there and how marissa wanted lauren to give me and letter from her and all this shit, chances are if lauren let marissa hang out with us, I would have just left right there, walked home or something. Shes so overrated. She just needs to save her breath, jump off a bridge and save us the bullets. Shes rediculas, I gave her the choice of me or dom and from what I got, she chose dom, and no offense to dom, cuz I've met him once and I didn't really say anything to him but dude, your an idiot. Should you ever read this, take it from me, just walk away man, shes impossible and your wasting your time. And marissa, should you ever read this, You are rediculas. I don't know how else to say it. All the shit, its gay. Every time Im alone in my room or just thinkin about shit before I go to sleep, your in the back of my head. Its horrible. I just want to move and never have to hear or see or think about you ever again.

Off the subject of marrisa cuz everyone I even think about her I get so fucking ripped I could kill some one. haha, I said the word ripped. Seth keeps tellin me how I keep saying that word. I don't know where I got it from but ripped....like...pissed off or angry. I probably heard it somewhere and just can't remember but anyway, its my new cool word. Haha, I'm havin this awsome conversation with greg and its E-mazing.  Were having a conversation 2 in the morning about how you should show your emotions openly and being all bottled up isn't the way to be. haha, if you've ever talked to greg, you'd know that this conversation, without reading it, is hysterical.

Well tomarrow, or rather later, I have gym first block, I can't wait to play woffleball...I found the Duke shorts that my sister stole from me. And speaking of which, shes home now, shes been home for the last week or so, here for good until we move. In a sense I can't wait to move, I can't wait to see the whole new world in virginia. New friends....I hope...New school, new town. A whole new chance to make a first impression and maybe have things work out a little better than this time around.

Lauren said we're gonna hang out at the outlets this week and get ice, yay! anyway, its defintly like 2 in the morning and I have to get up in 4 hours and Im defintly going to be tired all day.

And with this journal entry, I leave you with some song lyrics that contain words of wisdom.

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Single SIlver Bullet - Hawthorne Heights

Tonight, we fly away so high.
Our first full moon sky.

I'll breathe you in,
I won't let you down,
I won't hold your back,
I won't make a sound.

I know what scared you the most.

Being Alone,
Just like them,
Being Alive,
Feeling so... DEAD.

At least you'll have my... HEART.
You know you shine so bright.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can survive,
Without you.

Can you sleep at night,
If I hold you tight.
I won't let you go,
This feels so right.

Please don't leave this... TIME.

At least you'll have my... HEART.
You know you shine sooo bright.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can survive,
Without you.

Tonight, we fly away so high,
Tonight, We fly away.
You know the moon is full and,
I can't live without you.

Tonight we'll fly away
Got a single silver bullet, shot right through my heart
Tonight we'll fly, tonight...

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can survive.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Tonight we'll fly away so high
Shot right through my heart.
Like a full moon sky
To prove I can survive,
Without you.

Got a single Silver Bullet,
Tonight we'll fly away so high
Shot right through my heart.
Like a full moon sky
To prove I can survive,
Without you.

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The Fallout Boy - Saterday

I'm good to go
And I'm going nowhere fast
It could be worse
It could be taking you there with me
I'm good to go
But it looks like I'm still on my own

I'm good to go
For something golden
Though the motions I've been going through have failed
And I'm coasting on potential towards a wall
At a 100 miles an hour

When I say
Two more weeks
My foot is in the door, yeah
I can't sleep
In the wake of Saturday, Saturday
Saturday
When these open doors were open-ended
Saturday
When these open doors were open-ended

Pete and I attacked the laws of Astoria
with promise and precision and mess of youthful innocence
And I read about the afterlife
But I never really lived more than an hour, more than an hour

When I say
Two more weeks
My foot is in the door, yeah
I can't sleep
In the wake of Saturday, Saturday
Saturday
When these open doors were open-ended
Saturday
When these open doors were open-ended

And I read about the afterlife
But I never really lived
And I read about the afterlife
But I never really lived

Two more weeks
My foot is in the door
Me and Pete
In the wake of Saturday
Saturday
When these open doors were open-ended
Saturday
When these open doors were open-ended
Saturday
Saturday
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