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[screaming__]

do any of you ever wonder why you go through emotional highs and lows, why sometimes you feel like you're finally figuring things out and climbing out of a hole only to get devastated by something in life not too long afterwards? and it's a cycle, one minute you're having an inner revalation about yourself and life, and then EVERYTHING comes crashing down, followed by another self-fulfilling revelation, followed by another self-destructive devestation? come on, you all know what i'm talking about. i've read your blogs and bulletins, seeing you warring with your friends only to later write about how sorry you are and how much they all mean to you and suddenly deciding "these are my best friends and nothing can separate us" only to drift apart and find a new pack, or for some of you it's about how you don't need anyone because you've realized things about yourself, about them - but what you don't know is that you really haven't realized anything that they haven't and even moreso, they think that you haven't realized it either. so on and so forth. and you're searching constantly for somebody to love, somebody to hate, a new fixation, a new revelation, a new best friend because the last hundred have let you down, a new memory, a new song, a new hobby, a new hangout.. some of you turn to drinking, or smoking or getting high on the weekends, some of you every day. yeah, like it helps. there's a reason you keep doing it - cause it DOESN'T. you're just looking for something, anything to make you feel worth it or fulfilled for a while. but you don't, and you won't, and you know you'll keep searching, and you know for every high there is a low. and you can't seem to pull yourself out.

do you know why?

because,

NOTHING
SATISFIES
LIKE
JESUS.

the only place you haven't looked.

GET IT ALREADY.