ugh this sucks
I totaly forgot that 30 Seconds to mars was ganna be Carson Daly last night, so I missed it! Im still kicking myself for it. It killed my weekend. And I cant complain about it with anyone cuz I only know like 2 ppl who even like 30STM and Amko's gone, and Andi's somewhere with her mom, or something. ugh I need more 30STM fan friends that live near me. myspace sucks cuz the like 3 ppl that I talk to about 30 seconds live half way arounf the counrty(btw, I have yet to meet omeone who's in love with Shannon as much as I am)! This weekend already sucks. And I know it's not gonna get any better tomorrow.
So like I've been saying for like... ever. School is eally fucking sucking right now. I feel completly cut off from all my "friends". I dont feel like I connect with them like I used too. I dont know why, but I guess we're just growing apart. Which sucks. All Kayla does is complain. I barely stand her anymore. Andi's always busy lately, and I never get me and her time ever anymore. I balme Jasper, even though it's not really his fault, but it's just better to blame someone else rather then myself, even though I'm more likely the one to blame. Amko's having issuse with her mom or something, and is at her dad's. And everyone else I really cant stand. I'm so tired of Zephyr and Twiggy, anf their raves. I still love Sparty, I wish I was way more closer to her. DJ... DJ drives me crazy, but I still love the kid. But that fucking birtch Cari told his mom about the drugs, and now he's beeing sent bakc to Reno. I think Cari needs to have the shit beat out of her. Not just for the DJ thing, but ripping Twiggy off, and...... just being a stupid ugly bitch. I really dont like her. Lets see... I never really hang out with Zack anymore, which really scuks, because I heart that boy. I miss hanging out with him. I dont hang out with Sam or Amy really anymore either. I've become more close to Taylor though, and I have to say, it kinda scares me. I dont even really know why it scares me.... it just does. I've knone her since 5th grade, and never really cared to get to know her. But I'm glad I did. I love talking to her, even though we dont hang out alot out side of school. I think I've been telling her more stuff then I've told Andi lately. I really miss how me and Andi used to be like, at the beginning of the year. I dont know whats changed. I guess we both have other things we need to do now...... I dont really know whats happening to my life, and everyone around me........
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So like I've been saying for like... ever. School is eally fucking sucking right now. I feel completly cut off from all my "friends". I dont feel like I connect with them like I used too. I dont know why, but I guess we're just growing apart. Which sucks. All Kayla does is complain. I barely stand her anymore. Andi's always busy lately, and I never get me and her time ever anymore. I balme Jasper, even though it's not really his fault, but it's just better to blame someone else rather then myself, even though I'm more likely the one to blame. Amko's having issuse with her mom or something, and is at her dad's. And everyone else I really cant stand. I'm so tired of Zephyr and Twiggy, anf their raves. I still love Sparty, I wish I was way more closer to her. DJ... DJ drives me crazy, but I still love the kid. But that fucking birtch Cari told his mom about the drugs, and now he's beeing sent bakc to Reno. I think Cari needs to have the shit beat out of her. Not just for the DJ thing, but ripping Twiggy off, and...... just being a stupid ugly bitch. I really dont like her. Lets see... I never really hang out with Zack anymore, which really scuks, because I heart that boy. I miss hanging out with him. I dont hang out with Sam or Amy really anymore either. I've become more close to Taylor though, and I have to say, it kinda scares me. I dont even really know why it scares me.... it just does. I've knone her since 5th grade, and never really cared to get to know her. But I'm glad I did. I love talking to her, even though we dont hang out alot out side of school. I think I've been telling her more stuff then I've told Andi lately. I really miss how me and Andi used to be like, at the beginning of the year. I dont know whats changed. I guess we both have other things we need to do now...... I dont really know whats happening to my life, and everyone around me........
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