to whom it may concern.............
i feel sick
medicine-could be?
distance from ones i love- mabye?
feeling so shitty when im not around her- thats more like it....
i love her so much. but i don tknowo if its healthy that im not happy when shes not with me. i need some help. i ned to get out of therapy and go to a one on one counseling. thats what i want. i know that would help. i wnat to be with her forever. i dont wnat her to leave me. i want her to feel happy and to not have problems but thats impossible. everyone has problems even if they dont admit it. give me one person who doesnt have problems. i wnat to shake there hand. why isnt anyhting working. im sick of crying all the time. sick of all this shit casued becasue of me. am i changing? i dont want to change. i dont think i am changing. god im crying out for help. someone help me. rescue me from this dark pit i live in, in which the only light is her and select few. im not a bad person, but mabe ive been teling mslef that to much. mabe i am. mabe im a little shit who whenever doenst get his way he turns bad. i dont know what is goin on right now. i jsut wnat to run awa with her. i guarantee ill be happy then. i love you. i love you so much that words can describe. the only thing i can say is love but that just doesnt seem good enough. help me. im in need very bad. i think everda about quitting this stupid thing called life. sure peole would be sad....mabye? but the would eventually get over me and i woulndt have to deal with this shit anyomre. please darling help me. please........