hmmmm
so i just moved down to the south bay, torrance to be exact. been here a week. moved in with alvin and christian.
i've known alvin for something like 10 years now, and have always considered him to be one of my best friends...
but i guess that's where the trouble is. what is a best friend? and more importantly (for my own personal struggle here) is being a best friend mutual?
i mean, alvin's always said i was one of his best friends, and most of the time it feels like it, and he's always been one of my best friends...
but i mean, lately it just feels like i'm so low on his radar, like i'm his little joke, some kind of laughing stock for him and chris and danny or whoever may be over to laugh at. i feel so... excluded.
or maybe i'm just a pansy drunk ass bitch. but maybe not.
i dunno. i have more thoughts on the issue but can't seem to get them into words, so a later update i suppose.
in other news, job interview on monday!
stay real, livejournal. and whoever may still be out there reading this.
i've known alvin for something like 10 years now, and have always considered him to be one of my best friends...
but i guess that's where the trouble is. what is a best friend? and more importantly (for my own personal struggle here) is being a best friend mutual?
i mean, alvin's always said i was one of his best friends, and most of the time it feels like it, and he's always been one of my best friends...
but i mean, lately it just feels like i'm so low on his radar, like i'm his little joke, some kind of laughing stock for him and chris and danny or whoever may be over to laugh at. i feel so... excluded.
or maybe i'm just a pansy drunk ass bitch. but maybe not.
i dunno. i have more thoughts on the issue but can't seem to get them into words, so a later update i suppose.
in other news, job interview on monday!
stay real, livejournal. and whoever may still be out there reading this.