hmm
been a while i guess. back in california. been looking for a job, fruitlessly.
lately i've been having dreams that seem so real that i wake up and think they really happened. mundane things, really, like getting a service message to my phone that i can't open. or driving to the store for cigarettes. or doing my laundry. and then i wake up, and they feel like memories of what i did the day before. and it's a surprise when i find out they never happened, like, i see my dirty laundry and think, "what? i just did laundry yesterday....?" or thinking if i try now, i can open the service message, but it's not there anymore. or going to have a cigarette and it's not the brand i remember just buying yesterday. it's surreal.
i dunno what that means, but it kinda scares me.
lately i've been having dreams that seem so real that i wake up and think they really happened. mundane things, really, like getting a service message to my phone that i can't open. or driving to the store for cigarettes. or doing my laundry. and then i wake up, and they feel like memories of what i did the day before. and it's a surprise when i find out they never happened, like, i see my dirty laundry and think, "what? i just did laundry yesterday....?" or thinking if i try now, i can open the service message, but it's not there anymore. or going to have a cigarette and it's not the brand i remember just buying yesterday. it's surreal.
i dunno what that means, but it kinda scares me.