Life
Well, my life has been going through some drastic changes lately. For starters, I am alone, for the first time in over a year, and to be totally honest, I am not really all that sure how it is that I feel about it. I care about Eric, don't get me wrong, I care about his well being, and everything, but I just don't feel the same way that I used to. I just think that it has just started to die, you know. And I am not all that sure that I want to fix it, and if I do, I don't really know how I would go about trying to do that. Part of me thinks that I need to spend some time dealing with me. I have been with someone for so long, I don't remember what it is like to be happy with myself anymore. And to be totally honest that scares me. I am spending so much time alone, and it is driving me crazy. It sucks so bad, and I just don't know what to do about it.
Off that topic though, Work is going great, I am really enjoying it. School is going fine, Finals are next week and then I will go up north for a while to spend time with family and friends for the holiday.
So, I think I want to get back into modeling, but I am not sure as to how that would go over. I mean I know I am somewhat attractive, but the question is am I really that attractive. I dont know. But I guess time will tell me if I have what it takes. But I have to get to work right now, that will be enough for now... Have a good day y'alls...
::Hugs::
Paulie