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Yesterday was fucking retarded.
I had court yesterday at 12:30 with AJ (Haiden's father.) I get there and seems like it takes forever to find a damn parking space. Go in and wait for nearly 2 hours before we finally get called in. Sitting with mom. With AJ and his wife sitting directly across from us, facing us. Awkward silence. Blagh. We were pleasent to each other, but I still couldnt stand being near him. Anyway, we wait forever, finally get called in and are in there for less than 5 minutes after waiting so long. I was extremely pissed. The judge looks at AJ and says "You have two choices. You can either A) have a DNA test to show that the child in question is in fact yours or B) you can claim the child as yours yourself. Which would you like to do?" and of course he chooses the DNA test. Which is fine by me. HE has to pay for it, not me. And I know damn well Haiden is his so it's no skin off my back, I'm just SO frustrated because now we have to wait until March 13th just to go get the DNA test done, and then wait until MAY to go back to court, get the results, and get on with the rest of the trial.
And I have no idea what I'm going to do as far as visitation. I've been set in telling him I want NO involvement on his part what so ever. Because he's shown NO interest at all in being a father towards Haiden. Not even a simple call to see how he's doing. And he asked me yesterday "So how old is he?" and I wanted to slam his head through the class window we were standing by. Of course I smiled and said "Almost 5 months" but still. He doesn't even know how old he is! Jesus. But, at the same time, I badly want Haiden to have his father in his life. I grew up being such a daddy's girl, and I want Haiden to know what it's like to have the love of his father. I'm just concerned that he won't be the father Haiden deserves. But I feel I should give him a chance to proove me wrong. So I figure when we go to get the DNA test done, I'll ask him, AGAIN, what he's wanting as far as involvement with Haiden. I've asked him that before and he said he wanted to be involved. And then I don't hear from him since November, when he was supposed to call the "next day". I'll give him the chance. But as soon as he fucks up, he's gone. And I don't give a fuck what the judge says.
Lets see what else. To top my day off, Mike and I (this guy I work with) got into it and pissed me the fuck off. Again. See, he and I used like each other. But he kept blowing me off, and I met this other guy (who's freakin awesome) so Mike pretty much blew his chance. And wants to take it out on me. Fuck that. So that put me in an even worse mood.
Then I was supposed to go see Dustin (see above "freakin awesome") and seeing that I totalled my car, I've been having to use my dads car. Which is so nice of him to let me do, but at the same time I hate it. Because basically he only wants me to use it to go to work/class. Which sucks because now I don't get to see my friends, whom are my life support. I go crazy without them. So not being able to go see them when ever I want like I'm used to... fuckin blows. He doesn't want me putting on a shit load of miles on his car, which is totally understandable, I'm just not used to having restrictions. Im used to getting up and leaving and going where ever I please. I need to get my damn taxes done so I can start looking for a new car. But my point is, I left so I could go see Dustin and my dad through a fit.
And to top that off, because of my dad throwing a fit about it, it'll be a while before I can take the car out for anything other than work and such, and I still didn't even get to see Dustin.
Hopefully today will be better. I don't have to go to class today, which is a plus.
Ok time to stop bitching and start cleaning.
I had court yesterday at 12:30 with AJ (Haiden's father.) I get there and seems like it takes forever to find a damn parking space. Go in and wait for nearly 2 hours before we finally get called in. Sitting with mom. With AJ and his wife sitting directly across from us, facing us. Awkward silence. Blagh. We were pleasent to each other, but I still couldnt stand being near him. Anyway, we wait forever, finally get called in and are in there for less than 5 minutes after waiting so long. I was extremely pissed. The judge looks at AJ and says "You have two choices. You can either A) have a DNA test to show that the child in question is in fact yours or B) you can claim the child as yours yourself. Which would you like to do?" and of course he chooses the DNA test. Which is fine by me. HE has to pay for it, not me. And I know damn well Haiden is his so it's no skin off my back, I'm just SO frustrated because now we have to wait until March 13th just to go get the DNA test done, and then wait until MAY to go back to court, get the results, and get on with the rest of the trial.
And I have no idea what I'm going to do as far as visitation. I've been set in telling him I want NO involvement on his part what so ever. Because he's shown NO interest at all in being a father towards Haiden. Not even a simple call to see how he's doing. And he asked me yesterday "So how old is he?" and I wanted to slam his head through the class window we were standing by. Of course I smiled and said "Almost 5 months" but still. He doesn't even know how old he is! Jesus. But, at the same time, I badly want Haiden to have his father in his life. I grew up being such a daddy's girl, and I want Haiden to know what it's like to have the love of his father. I'm just concerned that he won't be the father Haiden deserves. But I feel I should give him a chance to proove me wrong. So I figure when we go to get the DNA test done, I'll ask him, AGAIN, what he's wanting as far as involvement with Haiden. I've asked him that before and he said he wanted to be involved. And then I don't hear from him since November, when he was supposed to call the "next day". I'll give him the chance. But as soon as he fucks up, he's gone. And I don't give a fuck what the judge says.
Lets see what else. To top my day off, Mike and I (this guy I work with) got into it and pissed me the fuck off. Again. See, he and I used like each other. But he kept blowing me off, and I met this other guy (who's freakin awesome) so Mike pretty much blew his chance. And wants to take it out on me. Fuck that. So that put me in an even worse mood.
Then I was supposed to go see Dustin (see above "freakin awesome") and seeing that I totalled my car, I've been having to use my dads car. Which is so nice of him to let me do, but at the same time I hate it. Because basically he only wants me to use it to go to work/class. Which sucks because now I don't get to see my friends, whom are my life support. I go crazy without them. So not being able to go see them when ever I want like I'm used to... fuckin blows. He doesn't want me putting on a shit load of miles on his car, which is totally understandable, I'm just not used to having restrictions. Im used to getting up and leaving and going where ever I please. I need to get my damn taxes done so I can start looking for a new car. But my point is, I left so I could go see Dustin and my dad through a fit.
And to top that off, because of my dad throwing a fit about it, it'll be a while before I can take the car out for anything other than work and such, and I still didn't even get to see Dustin.
Hopefully today will be better. I don't have to go to class today, which is a plus.
Ok time to stop bitching and start cleaning.