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So basically I should just never go to the mall again.
Like it wasn't bad enough running into Ron there on Thursday, Megan and I went last night so I could get an outfit for Miranda's wedding, and who do I see? AJ! (ugh.. the "father" (more like sperm doner) of my child) and his wife, Christine. JESUS! But I'm not sure if he saw me, even though we walked right by each other, so close I could have shoved him with my elbow. But I'm almost 100% possitive that Christine saw me. I just smiled at her and kept going.
DUH! Come on April, grow some damn balls. You're about to have his child in like... 2weeks?! And you haven't talked to him since MARCH. I definately should have said something to him. But, I guess I could be just as pissed at him for not saying anything to me.
According to Denice, he said that he wants to come see me at the hospitol when I have the baby. And when I talked to Christine at Denice's baby shower, she said that both of them wanted to be involved and help. So that's a little bit more reassuring, but I need to talk to HIM. Not his wife, not things I've heard through friends. HIM.
I need to find out what we're gonna do when this kid gets here. He said he wants to be involved, but I want to know HOW. I know that when he wants to see Haiden, I'm gonna be there. He's not gonna have him without me there, not for a long time I'm sure. Not til I trust him and this situation. So I hope he doesn't mind supervised visitation. Otherwise he won't be involved. But on a good note, Denice said he got a job (working for Food Lion! HA! Imagine that! Me too. Geez) so hopefully he'll be able to pay some sort of child support, cause I sure can't do it alone.
Hopefully if he comes to visit me at the hospital, Christine won't be with him. I mean, she's a really sweet girl and I have nothing against her, but when he comes, he and I need to talk. Alone. I guess I don't mind if she comes, but she's going to have to wait outside until AJ and I figure out what the hell we're gonna do. Then she can come in.
Ugh... I'm just rambeling. Whatever. At least running into him was WAY easier than seeing Ron. WOW.
Like it wasn't bad enough running into Ron there on Thursday, Megan and I went last night so I could get an outfit for Miranda's wedding, and who do I see? AJ! (ugh.. the "father" (more like sperm doner) of my child) and his wife, Christine. JESUS! But I'm not sure if he saw me, even though we walked right by each other, so close I could have shoved him with my elbow. But I'm almost 100% possitive that Christine saw me. I just smiled at her and kept going.
DUH! Come on April, grow some damn balls. You're about to have his child in like... 2weeks?! And you haven't talked to him since MARCH. I definately should have said something to him. But, I guess I could be just as pissed at him for not saying anything to me.
According to Denice, he said that he wants to come see me at the hospitol when I have the baby. And when I talked to Christine at Denice's baby shower, she said that both of them wanted to be involved and help. So that's a little bit more reassuring, but I need to talk to HIM. Not his wife, not things I've heard through friends. HIM.
I need to find out what we're gonna do when this kid gets here. He said he wants to be involved, but I want to know HOW. I know that when he wants to see Haiden, I'm gonna be there. He's not gonna have him without me there, not for a long time I'm sure. Not til I trust him and this situation. So I hope he doesn't mind supervised visitation. Otherwise he won't be involved. But on a good note, Denice said he got a job (working for Food Lion! HA! Imagine that! Me too. Geez) so hopefully he'll be able to pay some sort of child support, cause I sure can't do it alone.
Hopefully if he comes to visit me at the hospital, Christine won't be with him. I mean, she's a really sweet girl and I have nothing against her, but when he comes, he and I need to talk. Alone. I guess I don't mind if she comes, but she's going to have to wait outside until AJ and I figure out what the hell we're gonna do. Then she can come in.
Ugh... I'm just rambeling. Whatever. At least running into him was WAY easier than seeing Ron. WOW.