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It's days like today that I wish I were a cat. I'm sitting here looking at Riley, sleeping on the couch curled up in the littlest ball. This is after she annoyed the crap out of me, trying to jump up on the counter. Life just seems like it would be so wonderful as a cat. Her daily schedule consist of: wake up, run up and down the hallway frantically, meow for 5 minutes, eat, play, sleep, play, sleep, play, sleep, play. I mean for real. Who wouldn't want that?
Obviously I wouldn't be thinking all this is my life were wonderful right now. I'm guess I'm just a little confused which is stressing me out. And unfortunately I tend to hide my feelings more than I should. I don't think it helps. I do it to try and be strong but I think it just breaks me down in the end and everything is much worse. I need to face reality, I think I'm getting there though. It's not going to happen over night. But just by the steps I'm taking and doing a little each day. I'm getting somewhere.
The whole graphic design thing, and finding a job, excuse me a "career", is taking more time than I wish. But what the hell. I lost all my pieces from school so now I am trying to find time to make up a portfolio. And it's not like I can just throw some things together, they need to be good pieces. I don't exactly have all the time in the world, working 2 jobs and being Suzie home maker. I'm really frigging trying though. How could anyone say I'm not. What more can I do at this point?
& last but not least.. I hate disappointing people. But specially when I feel like it's not really any reason to be disappointed. Something so silly. It's hard cause 2 people don't always see the same thing. I just hope things turn out okay. It makes my heart hurt to be on edge with someone. I get so mopey and down on MYSELF. Cause what do you know its my fault. OR at least it always feels that way. I cant help the way I feel or the way I do things. It is what it is. I'll get to the top one of these days. And I can't wait!
on that note,
L_F
Obviously I wouldn't be thinking all this is my life were wonderful right now. I'm guess I'm just a little confused which is stressing me out. And unfortunately I tend to hide my feelings more than I should. I don't think it helps. I do it to try and be strong but I think it just breaks me down in the end and everything is much worse. I need to face reality, I think I'm getting there though. It's not going to happen over night. But just by the steps I'm taking and doing a little each day. I'm getting somewhere.
The whole graphic design thing, and finding a job, excuse me a "career", is taking more time than I wish. But what the hell. I lost all my pieces from school so now I am trying to find time to make up a portfolio. And it's not like I can just throw some things together, they need to be good pieces. I don't exactly have all the time in the world, working 2 jobs and being Suzie home maker. I'm really frigging trying though. How could anyone say I'm not. What more can I do at this point?
& last but not least.. I hate disappointing people. But specially when I feel like it's not really any reason to be disappointed. Something so silly. It's hard cause 2 people don't always see the same thing. I just hope things turn out okay. It makes my heart hurt to be on edge with someone. I get so mopey and down on MYSELF. Cause what do you know its my fault. OR at least it always feels that way. I cant help the way I feel or the way I do things. It is what it is. I'll get to the top one of these days. And I can't wait!
on that note,
L_F