Tried and True
Well,
I've done it again. Gotten myself into a situation that I KNEW would screw me. I'm still not sure what hurts more, being used, becoming a hypocrit for doing something I have swore I'd never do, or for being so goddamn naive. Well...not naive, if I was that I could at least say I didn't know better. But this is something I'm all to familiar with and I knew it was coming...but I was too stupid and got in the mess anyways. Why? Because I've been alone my entire life in one way or another, and I am looking so desparately to end that constant that I don't heed common fucking sense.
I've always preached and yapped about how I'd never get involved with another mans girl on purpose. It's just not right...yet here I am, yup I did it, and there it goes. And me...well the soapbox is in ashes and I've got shit to show for my trouble other then some more grey hair.
Well...I need to sleep before I manage to piss myself off enough that I'm up all night. I hope to dream of something sufficiently unpleasant to fit my current emotional state.
I've done it again. Gotten myself into a situation that I KNEW would screw me. I'm still not sure what hurts more, being used, becoming a hypocrit for doing something I have swore I'd never do, or for being so goddamn naive. Well...not naive, if I was that I could at least say I didn't know better. But this is something I'm all to familiar with and I knew it was coming...but I was too stupid and got in the mess anyways. Why? Because I've been alone my entire life in one way or another, and I am looking so desparately to end that constant that I don't heed common fucking sense.
I've always preached and yapped about how I'd never get involved with another mans girl on purpose. It's just not right...yet here I am, yup I did it, and there it goes. And me...well the soapbox is in ashes and I've got shit to show for my trouble other then some more grey hair.
Well...I need to sleep before I manage to piss myself off enough that I'm up all night. I hope to dream of something sufficiently unpleasant to fit my current emotional state.