Apparently...
I guess that I harbor resentment sometimes...toward Mark...I feel like he doesn't have much motivation in life. Now, whether or not this has anything to do with fear-of-failure, I don't know. The thing that worries me is: I feel like, in the past, if I encountered a partner who exhibited these behaviors, and seemed to lack motivation, I got out of it WAAAAY too late...I let the "love stuff" blind my judgment.
So, yes, it is hard to get aroused and wanna hit the sheets when all he seems to want to do in life (at the moment) is work for Rangers and play World of Warcraft! I hint around, curious to know more about his school stuff, try and talk to him about his goals, his fears, but he reveals little. I have seen the way he pacifies his mother and older sister when they ask similar questions and find it insulting that he does the same thing to me.
This is a major problem. I have goals and ambition and drive, like it or not...and I fear that he will be left in the dust of my momentum. I love Mark, and am happy otherwise, but I cannot let anyone weigh me down...I will just resent them later in life.
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So, yes, it is hard to get aroused and wanna hit the sheets when all he seems to want to do in life (at the moment) is work for Rangers and play World of Warcraft! I hint around, curious to know more about his school stuff, try and talk to him about his goals, his fears, but he reveals little. I have seen the way he pacifies his mother and older sister when they ask similar questions and find it insulting that he does the same thing to me.
This is a major problem. I have goals and ambition and drive, like it or not...and I fear that he will be left in the dust of my momentum. I love Mark, and am happy otherwise, but I cannot let anyone weigh me down...I will just resent them later in life.
S