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First entry in a LONG time. But I have a few things to say.. Tommy and I broke up. I dont really know how i feel about that yet. I miss him but i dont know if its him or if its just the relationship that i miss. Im only 18 I have the rest of my life to find someone to love me and to love in return. But I cant help but wonder how long its going to take before i feel the pure joy that i felt when i was with him. We might do something tonight but at the same time, Im really not sure if thats a good idea. I dont need a relationship now. I just dont want to lose him all together. But he acts differently when we are just friends than he did when we were actually a couple. And Im not sure that I like the way he acts now. But I guess im not giving him enough credit. He could just not talk to me at all.. but hes giving the friend thing a try. He says he wants more and at times i think i do too. But i know what i really need right now and its not a relationship. So friends will work. Another thing... James Baxter and I are just friends. We're best friends and to the people who think we are going to date. I dont think so. I love the kid but as no more than a friend. So.. i guess thats all i have to say about that<33