Idk!
Well, life is just fucking dandy. Why does it seem that I'm never good enough for anyone? I'm sick of living to people's standards. Fuck it! From now on, I'm just gonna be me and fuck what YOU think. This song is the shit:
Zug Izland - Sunny Day - Cracked Tiles CD
"Sunny Day"
Would you show me the door?
My apologies
I will slither out across the floor
I will crawl out on my knees
I'm ugly, my soul is ugly too
I have so many flaws
I'm sorry but there's nothing I can do
I hate myself because I....
I'll stand far away!
My apologies
I wouldn't wanna dull your sunny day
I'll crawl out on my knees
I'm sorry, I wreak of depression
I have so many flaws
Your happiness is my only obsession
Just you, all you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I? And figure out what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make you satisfied sometimes I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
I'm nasty, I'll try not to get me on you
My apologies
God forbid, what would we do?
I'll crawl out on my knees
I'll stand far away
I have so many flaws
I wouldn't wanna dull your sunny day
My karma last night, was your dinner
My apologies
I will follow you cause your a winner
I will crawl out on my knees
You aura, it glows like toxic waste
I have so many flaws
Spit and I would lick it just to taste your presence
Just you, all you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I ? and figure out what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make you satisfied sometime I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
I'm staring at your picture
Standing on the chair the rope is tied
Once I'm dead my ghost will come and haunt you
Cause it's you, that commited suicide
It's you, that commited suicide
Cause it's you, that committed suicide
When IT'S YOU THAT COMITTED SUICIDE
SAID IT'S YOU THAT COMITTED SUICIDE
Just you, all you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I ? And figure out what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make you satisfied sometime I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
Just you, all you...
I've managed to stay out of the office at school for about a month now. Classes are still mad gay though. Just grin and bear it. I've had alot of trouble sleeping lately.
I have been seriously thinking about dropping out of school. I've thought about it to the point I came up with a plan that actually sounds convincing. I can drop out and take the job I was offered at Virginia Beach Mechanical Co. I'd be a laborer doing construction work. I would go to night school to get my GED. The pay would be 12 dollars an hour, so that'd work for now. After I got my GED, I'd go to TCC for 2 years then transfer to UCF in Orlando, FL. I have a house down there close to the campus. High school is just too much for me right now. Too much drama (girls being silly, friends being mad jewish, etc.). I feel like going to sleep and just not waking up. "I'm locked within my own prison." When I get my car, I just wanna drive and not let go of the shifter or take my foot off of the gas pedal. I wanna go 'til I can't go any further, 'til I just break down (literally and mentally/emotionally). I live this lie day after day after day. Brittany and Kayla and a few others are great to talk, to but I never seem good enough for anybody. I just want a loved one to have and to hold. Anyways, I'm probably ranting like an idiot, but somehow I think y'all understand me sometimes on some level. Oh well. Call me sometime y'all,
839-2532. Late...
Zug Izland - Sunny Day - Cracked Tiles CD
"Sunny Day"
Would you show me the door?
My apologies
I will slither out across the floor
I will crawl out on my knees
I'm ugly, my soul is ugly too
I have so many flaws
I'm sorry but there's nothing I can do
I hate myself because I....
I'll stand far away!
My apologies
I wouldn't wanna dull your sunny day
I'll crawl out on my knees
I'm sorry, I wreak of depression
I have so many flaws
Your happiness is my only obsession
Just you, all you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I? And figure out what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make you satisfied sometimes I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
I'm nasty, I'll try not to get me on you
My apologies
God forbid, what would we do?
I'll crawl out on my knees
I'll stand far away
I have so many flaws
I wouldn't wanna dull your sunny day
My karma last night, was your dinner
My apologies
I will follow you cause your a winner
I will crawl out on my knees
You aura, it glows like toxic waste
I have so many flaws
Spit and I would lick it just to taste your presence
Just you, all you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I ? and figure out what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make you satisfied sometime I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
I'm staring at your picture
Standing on the chair the rope is tied
Once I'm dead my ghost will come and haunt you
Cause it's you, that commited suicide
It's you, that commited suicide
Cause it's you, that committed suicide
When IT'S YOU THAT COMITTED SUICIDE
SAID IT'S YOU THAT COMITTED SUICIDE
Just you, all you
Don't blame me I never can believe how stupid I can sound
For you, only you
It's obviously my fault why can't I ? And figure out what's wrong with me
Just you, all you
I can never truly make you satisfied sometime I just wish I wasn't me
For you, only you
Maybe I'd be better off alone all I do is embarass me
Just you, all you...
I've managed to stay out of the office at school for about a month now. Classes are still mad gay though. Just grin and bear it. I've had alot of trouble sleeping lately.
I have been seriously thinking about dropping out of school. I've thought about it to the point I came up with a plan that actually sounds convincing. I can drop out and take the job I was offered at Virginia Beach Mechanical Co. I'd be a laborer doing construction work. I would go to night school to get my GED. The pay would be 12 dollars an hour, so that'd work for now. After I got my GED, I'd go to TCC for 2 years then transfer to UCF in Orlando, FL. I have a house down there close to the campus. High school is just too much for me right now. Too much drama (girls being silly, friends being mad jewish, etc.). I feel like going to sleep and just not waking up. "I'm locked within my own prison." When I get my car, I just wanna drive and not let go of the shifter or take my foot off of the gas pedal. I wanna go 'til I can't go any further, 'til I just break down (literally and mentally/emotionally). I live this lie day after day after day. Brittany and Kayla and a few others are great to talk, to but I never seem good enough for anybody. I just want a loved one to have and to hold. Anyways, I'm probably ranting like an idiot, but somehow I think y'all understand me sometimes on some level. Oh well. Call me sometime y'all,
839-2532. Late...