Different Shit, Same Day
Turns out that I could not book a later flight. Blast. I have to say "blast" again. Blast. So instead I will be on the bigass flight to asia, then to america. Blast. Info: I am uncomfortable with flying so usually on long flights I drink a good bit of red wine and get drunk so I can sleep most of the time, or at least have fun and have time pass very quickly. What I hate about flying is that I usually do it alone these days, and I end up next to some boring and uninteresting old guy. But it´s okay, I get tipsy and fall asleep.
Anyway the point is, I will have to go to a NEW life AGAIN, even though temporarily, at least until I return here to Oslo, where my real life is.
Being here, I realise that when I am not here, scotty ceases to exist. Then he wakes up from his hybernation/cryogenic freezing when he returns.
It is true, when I am not enjoying life, a part of me switches off temporarily.
As I was saying, my new life is due to an interesting chain of events from the time I moved to america. It starts like this:
-may 2002: scotty is thirteen years old. he loses his "innocence" to a fourteen year old french girl and begins to look at the world differently.
-august 2002: scotty moves to america from scandinavia
to live with his father. he gets a kind of "culture shock" but tries to adjust.
-november 2002: scotty starts to realise that he does not enjoy living in america and it doesn´t help that he has no good friends.
-december 2002: scotty starts having some mild depression and his studies go down, but the snow and christmas time mood lifts his spirit.
-april 2003: scotty goes on a chill vacation to honolulu with his little bro, mother and stepfather (poppy) but returns to america and starts being down again.
-june 2003: scotty is starting to get quite annoyed with the severe lack of friends and the ignorance and arrogance of some american kids, and NEEDS a vacation.
-july 2003: scotty wishes it was 1984 because that apparently would have been a cool year for him. anyway, scotty goes to nice in the south of france and chills there alone for a month and makes some good single-serving friends, which also makes him pretty much sad. In nice he witnesses something horrible which he will not share to this journal at this point.
-august 2003: scotty visits oslo and forgets his small troubles and chills with the oslo people, however this only lasts roughly a week.
-september 2003: scotty enters a new american public school with a more bitter, jaded attitude towards the world and people in general after the incident in nice, and develops a gradual dislike for many of the people in that public school. however, understand that scotty was and never will be one of those crazy trenchcoat white kids that blow up schools or shoot people, because he is mostly against violence.
-november 2003: scotty has made a few friends but still has strong dislike for many american kids and american nationalism/patriotism.
-december/january 2003/2004: scotty goes to asia to visit his little bro, mother and poppy for the holidays and new year. he likes it there and has fun, but this taste of the life similar to what he once lived makes him more depressed when he goes back to america.
-february 2004: scotty wakes up one day and decides to play the guitar. he plays.
-march 2004: scotty is busted by school officials for mostly selling fake drugs/placebos and carrying a swiss army pocket knife. the reason that he was carrying this stuff is simply that he wanted some extra cash and he always carried around a knife, a lighter, a small flashlight and other "plan B" items. it was also partly to be forced to move, but scotty still argues with himself about whether this is true or not. scotty is glad that something like this would happen to him because perhaps this means moving. he is also sad about perhaps leaving his father, who he cares for much.
-march/april/may 2004: scotty is expelled from school and spends his time as constructively as he can. he starts to learn more guitar, exercise more, read more, learn more, and start knitting and doing origami. This is the age of rebirth. scotty also chills alone much of the time watching seinfeld and simpsons among others and chatting with oslo-buddies. to scotty, this is the best time he has had in america so far. he also learns how to prepare a chill meal of spiced chicken.
june 2004: scotty decides that he does not want to go to nice again, after what happened last year, the incident in which he is still struggling with.
however, he does not, for some reason, communicate this incident to the therapy group he is attending. scotty enjoys the group and this is where he meets monica from el salvador who studies photography. monica hooks scotty to photography and he still has a great interest in it.
june/july 2004: scotty goes to asia and chills with his family there for about a month, and has a good time.
august 2004: scotty comes to oslo and is about to leave as he writes this and he is feeling down. he is packed, and he has said his "see you laters" to his oslo-buddies.he is down because he has to leave until next year. on this visit he has finally confessed the incident in nice and the personal troubles and bitterness and skepticism that comes with it. he has told his friends, but only because he was not sober, he believes. other than spilling his truth and his heart to people blasted and ending up getting tears in his eyes, he has been dealing with it okay. he hopes that things will get better.
september 2004: scotty will go to military school for a few months and develop his brain and creativity skills and get a bit stronger and (hopefully) more organised. for him, the future looks pretty bright as he will eventually move to oslo. he will most likely spend his last year of high school there, and he has plans to screw around the world a bit in an apprenticeship with a pro-photographer, and eventually, when capital is raised, open a nice pub/bar somewhere.
So yes, there is a small part of my life story as it is so far. I would like to write a book about it featuring a character very similar to me, but I have been having some trouble because it gets so personal, like when the spotlights and cameras are on you, rather than the other idiot that everyone can laugh at or feel sorry for. Life is actually doing well for me now, it´s not as if I have any REAL problems. My family is healthy, I´m young and healthy, I´m getting an education, and most of all I will do what I want. So it´s all good.
I will use this entry to put down my oslo-family´s email address:
anne@veigaard.no
ole.marius@veigaard.no
ingvar.theo.olsen@heso.no
rafaelfagat@hotmail.com
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Anyway the point is, I will have to go to a NEW life AGAIN, even though temporarily, at least until I return here to Oslo, where my real life is.
Being here, I realise that when I am not here, scotty ceases to exist. Then he wakes up from his hybernation/cryogenic freezing when he returns.
It is true, when I am not enjoying life, a part of me switches off temporarily.
As I was saying, my new life is due to an interesting chain of events from the time I moved to america. It starts like this:
-may 2002: scotty is thirteen years old. he loses his "innocence" to a fourteen year old french girl and begins to look at the world differently.
-august 2002: scotty moves to america from scandinavia
to live with his father. he gets a kind of "culture shock" but tries to adjust.
-november 2002: scotty starts to realise that he does not enjoy living in america and it doesn´t help that he has no good friends.
-december 2002: scotty starts having some mild depression and his studies go down, but the snow and christmas time mood lifts his spirit.
-april 2003: scotty goes on a chill vacation to honolulu with his little bro, mother and stepfather (poppy) but returns to america and starts being down again.
-june 2003: scotty is starting to get quite annoyed with the severe lack of friends and the ignorance and arrogance of some american kids, and NEEDS a vacation.
-july 2003: scotty wishes it was 1984 because that apparently would have been a cool year for him. anyway, scotty goes to nice in the south of france and chills there alone for a month and makes some good single-serving friends, which also makes him pretty much sad. In nice he witnesses something horrible which he will not share to this journal at this point.
-august 2003: scotty visits oslo and forgets his small troubles and chills with the oslo people, however this only lasts roughly a week.
-september 2003: scotty enters a new american public school with a more bitter, jaded attitude towards the world and people in general after the incident in nice, and develops a gradual dislike for many of the people in that public school. however, understand that scotty was and never will be one of those crazy trenchcoat white kids that blow up schools or shoot people, because he is mostly against violence.
-november 2003: scotty has made a few friends but still has strong dislike for many american kids and american nationalism/patriotism.
-december/january 2003/2004: scotty goes to asia to visit his little bro, mother and poppy for the holidays and new year. he likes it there and has fun, but this taste of the life similar to what he once lived makes him more depressed when he goes back to america.
-february 2004: scotty wakes up one day and decides to play the guitar. he plays.
-march 2004: scotty is busted by school officials for mostly selling fake drugs/placebos and carrying a swiss army pocket knife. the reason that he was carrying this stuff is simply that he wanted some extra cash and he always carried around a knife, a lighter, a small flashlight and other "plan B" items. it was also partly to be forced to move, but scotty still argues with himself about whether this is true or not. scotty is glad that something like this would happen to him because perhaps this means moving. he is also sad about perhaps leaving his father, who he cares for much.
-march/april/may 2004: scotty is expelled from school and spends his time as constructively as he can. he starts to learn more guitar, exercise more, read more, learn more, and start knitting and doing origami. This is the age of rebirth. scotty also chills alone much of the time watching seinfeld and simpsons among others and chatting with oslo-buddies. to scotty, this is the best time he has had in america so far. he also learns how to prepare a chill meal of spiced chicken.
june 2004: scotty decides that he does not want to go to nice again, after what happened last year, the incident in which he is still struggling with.
however, he does not, for some reason, communicate this incident to the therapy group he is attending. scotty enjoys the group and this is where he meets monica from el salvador who studies photography. monica hooks scotty to photography and he still has a great interest in it.
june/july 2004: scotty goes to asia and chills with his family there for about a month, and has a good time.
august 2004: scotty comes to oslo and is about to leave as he writes this and he is feeling down. he is packed, and he has said his "see you laters" to his oslo-buddies.he is down because he has to leave until next year. on this visit he has finally confessed the incident in nice and the personal troubles and bitterness and skepticism that comes with it. he has told his friends, but only because he was not sober, he believes. other than spilling his truth and his heart to people blasted and ending up getting tears in his eyes, he has been dealing with it okay. he hopes that things will get better.
september 2004: scotty will go to military school for a few months and develop his brain and creativity skills and get a bit stronger and (hopefully) more organised. for him, the future looks pretty bright as he will eventually move to oslo. he will most likely spend his last year of high school there, and he has plans to screw around the world a bit in an apprenticeship with a pro-photographer, and eventually, when capital is raised, open a nice pub/bar somewhere.
So yes, there is a small part of my life story as it is so far. I would like to write a book about it featuring a character very similar to me, but I have been having some trouble because it gets so personal, like when the spotlights and cameras are on you, rather than the other idiot that everyone can laugh at or feel sorry for. Life is actually doing well for me now, it´s not as if I have any REAL problems. My family is healthy, I´m young and healthy, I´m getting an education, and most of all I will do what I want. So it´s all good.
I will use this entry to put down my oslo-family´s email address:
anne@veigaard.no
ole.marius@veigaard.no
ingvar.theo.olsen@heso.no
rafaelfagat@hotmail.com
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