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i realize that writing anything of meaning in this is contradictory to what i'm trying to do. but i can't just keep holding it in. but then again, suffering because i kept something from you is better than regreting ever saying anything. and since i regret saying so many things, i don't plan on making that mistake again. i just keep trying to lose all feeling. numbness is better than pain.
god it feels like you don't care. whatever. i shouldn't care that you don't care.
god it feels like you don't care. whatever. i shouldn't care that you don't care.