Roomies: who need ya?

Oct 27, 2008 21:40

For those of you that didn't see Snic's LJ on this yet, Jill just packed up and left. As in: I don't have roomie anymore. Let me break this down to basic levels so you can kind of see what makes me tick. Okay, so first off, Jill was a friend and I see this as a betrayal. You don't pack up and go leaving only a note and no notice. Especially after someone shows kindness to you in not making a big stink that you are out of work for months and starts a tab for rent and utilities for you. I even gave her the option of working off some what she owes by doing painting and stuff around the house. Well, I guess I put my trust in the wrong person- which is my fault, but she really didn't have to bite my hand- I wasn't pushing her to do anything. If you've got to move out, okay, but don't just scribble down a reason and pack and leave. TELL ME, because I wasn't budgeting for this and it has put quite a stress on Snic and me to make sure we can make the mortgage and bills for the next couple of months. I am worried that something happened, and half hoping something did, just to justify such a cold and abrupt end. Needless to say I do not consider Jill a friend anymore. The kind of friends I keep don't pull this bullshit on me and they certainly wouldn't do it with a few sentences on an envelope. I am worth at least a paragraph! I know Snic and I are not the easiest to live with, but there was no argument or breach of confidence leading up to this end. In my mind, she had no right to do this to us. Not to mention the fact that she has shamed me. I defended her and made excuses for her to everyone, including Snic, as to why I was continuing to allow her in our home. She turned around and did this, and made me a sucker. I doubt we'll see the money she owes us, and she kept a copy of the DAMN HOUSE KEY. Now, I am thinking it best to have the locks changed, so I have to go to my dad and ask for his help. Which means I have to explain to my dad what happened, which means I will be even more discredited in the eyes of those who love me. This is why I am not friends with girls. My guy friends don't pull this shit with me, and girls have. Although part of me is relieved. I think it a bad idea to get another roomie. I love Snic, and I think he will be the last person with whom I share my home, providing we find a way to afford just the two of us. I enjoy having the house to myself. Jill could have gone about this a better way, and I am sorry she didn't. Maybe she'll find someone else who will help her, but it isn't going to me ever again. I wish her no luck and I hope no good news befalls her, because someone who would do this to us doesn't deserve happiness. Not to mention she told me she paid James back the money she owed him, and she didn't. I never saw this one coming and I don't want to be taken advantage of ever again. I try so hard to help people... it never works out. But, I am not going to stop helping, I'm just going to remember that when I let it slide, it's gone. My mistake was thinking I'd see the money she owed us. Whatever, I still have Snic, and in the end it is just me and him against the world anyways. We'll prevail, we're too awesome to fail. Money is only important because we think it is, we put all this faith in the numbers, in metal, in paper. As long as I can get by in this world with what is important, I'm not going to sweat it. I work hard to get by and be happy and nothing can change that happiness unless I let them. I am good. The animals are good. Snic is good. I am thankful for what I got and fuck the losses.
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